check it out.

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You Are 85% Creative

You are an incredibly creative person. For you, there are no bounds or limits to your creativity. Your next creation could be something very great... Or at least very cool!

How Creative Are You?

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I was listening to a song called Wooden Pint earlier... google it (not sure if you will come up with anything, still try) got it off my internet radio station.
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I have not forgotten my WTF series (less cool) or The Cheap Ass Radio show (more cool)

I will do a radio show sometime soon. I have some ideas for one. Trust me. It will lack quality. When does it not? :D I am kidding, actually my radio show should be given an award in the form of cash. I am still waiting for a powerful corporation to realize my edgy potential and how much advertising that would bring.
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Mid June... The Darkness Will Spread....

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Yes I am THAT big of a geek... but why the fuck not?

Art. What? Art. Art is Art.

z

I am listening to some Irish Punk/folk. The Pogue. Very good shit, yep. If you do not agree, well ummm... yeah. I have reviewed clinical materials, while chatting it up with Carrie. I am enjoying my coffee, love the coffee... as there should be a bible committed to it.

If I do not ingest this medicine, the transformation process consumes me and I become something else, call it addiction, but I don't kill for it, nor neglect my bills for it, yet the monster within does speak addiction, no ?Speaking of horrible things. I always enjoyed this book as a younger male growing up in a world that seemed to be composed of lies as I grew older. No magic, but plenty of disappointment, regret, emotional trauma, self-hate, lack of care over fellow human beings... addiction, and card debt. So now that I said all of these happy things. Yet I believe these are tests of principles. anyways I digress. Here ya go. Click on the picture. It is a great read. That is not really true. However I read this when I was around ten or so.

Here is where I leave you with images that I find interesting.

I thought this would be cool, because I have brain tumors.

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Update - yep. I am not "pure" watch out people.

You Are 44% Pure

You're not so innocent... in fact, you're quite unpure. You have seen and experienced a lot. And you're no worse for the wear!

The 100 Question Purity Test

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I was taking a walk down memory lane and found myself thinking... what happened to all the shows I grew up with? They all went away. So I brought back their introductions or other people did and now I am just piggy backing on their hard work. I find myself actually laughing at some of these and genuinely missing others. 80's themes were rather bad weren't they?

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Dude Thundercats!

I wonder if this guy gets laid much?





Fraggle Rock

Hello

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I have added a new artist to left, his name is Chris Black *adds another cd to my list, that I do not have the money to buy* If you dig Tom Waits and melancholy tunes then this guy is up that alley. I sent him email requesting his approval of me linking to him and all that jazz. He was happy to give me the green light even after I appeared like a crazy fan. So he rocks.
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Old Video/Repost - still watch it. It is good.


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I have been writing lately, if you want to read it, ask... and provide your email, I will hook you up. -be prepared to be disappointed- Mind you it is very graphic, cruel and kinda depressing and that is just the grammar, the content is worse.
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Accidentally deleted my driver for my flash stick... I just need to restart my work computer and it will be fine... but I am lazy. Later I will have a pic up... mind you I am not responsible if you get motion sickness. I am gods gift to the blind and lepers.

Working. Work. what? Work.

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I am one, very busy and completely swamped person.
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Completion of all things below by the end of the day.

Clinical Filing (this is going to take a while)
Clinical Scanning (pesky contracts, state verification of services, and so on)
Review of Clinical Forms via the computer (rapists? Victims? Drunks? Mental health issues)
Meeting W/Clinical Director in re: clinical forms and issues, and corresponding action that I have taken (heads up)
Writing two? (maybe more) letters to consultants who have not properly filled out forms (via computer) in mass. So I must crush them... all joke aside, I hate telling people that they are liability. Then the man (clinical director) will sign them as if he wrote them.
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I had nothing to write about, so I wrote about my job. I have seen other people do it, so for today I wanted to be a conformist. Just today... don't get your hopes up... it will happen again long time down the road from now.

Hey I have to edited this, because I think it looks lame.

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Update 5/17/07 - Work In progress. Click on it. yes it is creepy.End of Update. listen to my radio show below... please :-)
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My Cheap Ass Radio Show
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Duration: 23 minutes
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I talk about the following:

Blogmad.net
Endy
Blue Eyes
My feelings toward them and then I forget what I am talking about. This is always a reoccurring theme. I admit I am an ass or rather peevish.
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My own self inflated ego and admit that I am an attention whore. I would be an attention prostitute but in order for that title to pass I need to make money doing this.
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Blogs, political blogs, and my dislike for them. Not understanding either side of the fence, finding that the issues surrounding our government and the people that comprise it do not really care about us, only themselves.
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My feelings on: The war on drugs, Gun Control, Laws, Decency, and Fascist behavior
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Understand that none of this maybe in order. I do not stay on topic and at best my speech and topics are not coherent. Yet please grab a cup of coffee and some headphones, put your feet up and chill.

I am drinking coffee.

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I hate windows xp and windows media player... fuck you. I can't transfer my recorded file from my mp3 player to the hard drive of my home computer. Piece of shit.

If you can not tell, I have been trying to do this for the last hour. I understand computers and software without too much trouble, but this fucking thing won't work, it does not have read only or anything of such, in fact that is disabled and I can not even click on it - a mild observation compared to the bullshit I have had to deal with, god damn it is like I am the only guy that says the word "about" at an all Canadian mafia meeting.

All the more to never mind and upload it tomorrow morning. Take care everyone.

Click on it. Work in PROGRESS

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Demon is an ass.

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I deleted my blog off blogmad.net

This was not well taken by people within the shoutbox. Last night I was accused of being a dick because I did not want to change my auto-play feature on my music. I did change it. Now you have to select a song for it to play. This morning when I went to actually go through the steps to turn off my blog and probably keep my account active for when or if I return. However, I was met with more opposition. People really do not like it when you don't bow to conformity. My statement was not rude this morning. I said hello to the moderator and told her what I was doing... taking down my blog. I was called petulant.

pet·u·lant
adj.

1. Unreasonably irritable or ill-tempered; peevish.
2. Contemptuous in speech or behavior.

Why? Did I piss on some one? belittled them or was rude? Nope I was not. Yet people really do not like it when you make any kind of waves, especially for a group that the person(s) in question belong to. I decided that this means I needed to terminate my account as I won't be returning.

However that is not the only point... I got nothing out of blogmad.net... besides meeting Aria and Carrie, so it was worth the experience.

It was fun while it lasted at poor blogmad, as it has succumbed to little or no surfing and the few people that do go through that many site obviously could get irritated with my auto-play music due to seeing my blog 47 times in under an hour. Now they never need worry.

Rectum shaped faces... its worse when they open their mouths

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Update: I lied I decided to not post a radio show tonight... I tried but could not think about what to talk about. I am listening to Tom Waits - Underground.


I love working. I really do. It gives me strength, even if others do not notice. It gives me balance.
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When I hear music... it makes me feel empowered, even if it is dark...
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I have some concepts completed for my next WTF episode. Mind you it will be better, then the last. It will be a pope on acid kind-of-experience. Yay for popes on acid, or popes on Popsicles either or.

My next radio show will be later tonight, when the little dude/best bud is in bed.
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Yeah nothing note worthy... just letting ya know I am not dead... even if I was I am sure I could still use a computer, just don't know if I could get a good connection. It took Jesus 3 days to re-spawn, that is a rather bad connection... don't ya think?

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Monkey Man is the more then just a man, he is a monkey that is also a man.

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I might be MIA for a little while (today, Monday, maybe Tuesday - during the day, at night I may be on). I have much work to complete. I kinda pissed my days away without fear, but now it is crunch time. My up and coming plans is to make more kick ass and dynamic WTF episodes (the last one blew so bad that a blind person hated it), more radio shows... and who knows some other art work, maybe.
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My lady is graduating from her college this weekend.
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I am broke on pay day (bills 1,200 dollars worth in the course of 2 weeks) and then additional 400 - 500 on the 3rd week. Yep. Fucking sucks. My lady is staring her new job Monday and it could not have started at a better time. Hate being broke. Good kinda broke... minimum debt, and bills paid.
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Well rock on.
Demon23

Ed

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Dear Demon,

Hamell is currently hard at work staging his one man show The Terrorism Of Everyday Life but we make sure he hears about the "pertinent" things, a category you fall into. He said to feel free to use anything you want, "spread the word" and if you make a million buy him a car.

Good luck and thanks for your interest in Hamell On Trial.

Best, Emily @ Such-A-Punch Media

----- Original Message -----

Sent: Wednesday, May 09, 2007 10:50 AM

Subject: Response from www.hamellontrial.com

realname: Demon
email: JRDemon23@hotmail.com
Message: Holy shit... you made me spit my coffee out when I heard the song heat. You are one funny, intelligent, clever fucking bastard. You even let us listen to whole freak'in songs (how did you do that, record labels are such pieces of shit for the most part - money grubbing whores). If it was not for music.com/Pandora I would never have heard you. Fuck radio, internet radio man... no FCC keeping me from hearing you. I will be more then shocked if you reply, no band has yet to do this that I know of. May I host the songs you have listed? My blog does not have THAT much traffic and I will link back to this site and give you credit and an up and running logo that does above mentioned link back. Do yo have a logo I can use or do you just want me to make one. So dude how about it? Please and all that shit. If ya don't reply back, I will go ahead and link you (above mentioned plan) and then you can sue me or reply and tell me fuck no and that is cool too. Hell I will give you the 10 cents in my pocket. http://www.Vile2cents.blogspot.com You ever going to come and play in maine?
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Damn right I will buy him a car if I get a million dollars. I know he did not reply, and some one else did, but that is still pretty freak'in cool. Yeah I can spread the word. I am such a fan of this dude within one day. He got some mad skill. You can find this dudes music all over my blog. When you come to my blog one of his songs start playing right off the bat. If you do not like him, fill out your personal information, telephone number and I will make sure something is done for you. *thinks about homosexual dominator or S&M dating websites* So yeah. Have a good day and all.

Listen to Values!

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This guy is kick ass. Ed Hamell man... I put his link on my blog. Look for it. Left hand, top corner.
Here is another link, it is the newest album. When I get the cash I am buying his album. Listen to values... listen, and listen again and again! It's #7 on the album. Just click. He even lets you listen to tons of full songs for free... Don't piss on the deal and sign up. Remember Ann Coulter has a stinky...
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Update

This is the What The Fuck? series. It will get better over time and use more intelligent art work and what not, but I kept waiting to long to do it. So I grabbed the shitty MSpaint brush bullshit. Gimp was my first choice, but I am at work, aren't I?

So here you are. Now that I did one, I will want to do more and make them better. Please do not consider my artistic skill bullshit, well it is, but that is not why this is. I will commit more time and better software for coming episodes.

I would not consider this a comic strip or a political cartoon series. I would consider it more of a waste of time. Similar to a priest visiting anything but the boy scouts. Complete waste of time.

CLICK ON THE PIC TO SEE IT BETTER.

No the guy does not need two hands... wow this really does suck... but I am going to keep doing it.

Shut up, the topic line was not emo.

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I am do for a smoke soon. I am drinking another cup of coffee. I see myself burning out my blood stream, nervous system, lungs, brain, and moral and ethical ability to care for others needs. However that day has not come yet... until it does, I will be - Demon and fine.
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Kitten I am sorry you have been unable to listen to my Cheap Ass Radio show, however the noise pollution I create, kills dolphins. So maybe it is a good thing. If I could, I would create an identity drop box and use my ninja agents to set headphones in it. You would have a key delivered by two highly trained Ex-CIA agents that would allow you to open your drop box and retrieve said item.
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Remember when you can to check out my music station. It good music. Or so I think so.
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I will do another radio show soon. Carrie - I will post the duration time of the show, I will also continue to state whatever I cover in my radio show.
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People seem kinda blue today (as have I)... so I thought these pictures would make people smile, as they do make me smile.

I lied.

z

I was going to do another radio thing, but not right now. I need more privacy to commit myself.

I have some questions -

What would you the listeners like to hear? Do you have any questions, things you want me to address?

I really would love some input, it would help keep me on track.

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1. I removed Twitter.com, because it no longer displayed correctly (the way I wish). In the future I may put it back.
   
2. Music.com/Pandora I believe this is the best system for finding music. It really does work most of the time. If you click on Pandora it will have my music on it. I suggest making your own Free account. The two act as one. Go to music.com first.
   

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I need more coffee and commit to work. Have a pleasant day. I know I will.

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I completed my Cheap Ass Radio show.

- Gender (differences, equal, but different)
- Decisions
- Loving the light, by knowing the bad
- people who let their mental ilnness overcome
- Flirting
- women/me flirting with them
- how guys do not like me
- Parenting - gender identification

None of this is in order. Enjoy.

Have you ever seen the bunnies... trust me, you would know if you have.

z

This is the 2nd installment or maybe it is the 3rd. The link I provide has the option to play the older episodes. If you ever believed that bunnies are cute, then you gravely mistaken... I speak of true bunny untold power... all of the episodes can be found here.

I am going to ask the creator if I can have a direct link, hosting through him.

The episodes of pure bunny power are rated M for mature, for uhh, excessive violence.

Anyways watch the damn bunny... please.

My voice...

z

I cover this in my Cheap Ass Radio Show

Note: you do not have to download anything, you do not have to do anything besides click on the link and prepared to be amazed.

My plans (sorta)
My Feelings toward the bullshit (life)
My Feelings on People Judging me
Some questions for you the listeners.
A lot of rambling, vulgarity and disrespect.

Emotional... Emotions... then just motion.

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I watched a co-worker cry yesterday. I listened to her as she did this, she was very angry and hurt by other department heads actions taken against her. I understand her pain, but said very little.

She is older then myself, by 30 years or less. I felt only mildly awkward. She felt better after releasing all of her problems. I remained unhurt in her dumping the toxic pool of problems, my mind was on cloud nine as it this morning.

I have seen so much in only 24 years of life. It is rather amazing, as I see more and more about emotions and the human condition then I ever thought would be possible.

I have come to understand people decide most of their own misery, myself included. We make decisions that we do not acknowledge at a later date that obviously put us in the boat that we are in.

Therapists, Doctors, Presidents, Social Workers, Humans. None of us seem to want to be held accountable. Yet the sickness, the mental illness that I speak of is when we try to lie to ourselves and commit similar decisions that lead us down a path that we should not have started. Yet turning around means admitting that it was mistakes of the individual, so we continue the lie-to-ourselves and continue down the path that will lead to so many worse things then death.


Demon Quote: I sleep like I never woke, and when my eyes do open, they remain wide so that I may see all that I can.

I found this in the blog world... and stole it.

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I found this on Kitten's blog

Your Personality Profile

You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant. Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle. You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs. For you, comfort and calm are very important. You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection. You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

Yep stole another test from the mighty and all knowing kitten. I have been planning on making another video. I should link the sidebar with what I previously have created. I forgot the camera at home today.

Speaking of making a video - I have forgotten how many websites that host my material.
I have to keep a list of all the sites I have going, accounts and forums. Good god, I have too many.

I also want more bells and whistles on my blog site. Not that many people can begin to notice how much goodies I have crammed on to this blog... Aria uses my little stupid chat box. Thank you Aria, I have yet to be on when you are, but love a good chat

By good Chat I mean the following is not allowed.
no bots,
no teenager wanting cybersex
No 12 people stating - a/s/l) <---- because that shit is stupid.

No "what is your name?"

Aria is a doll though and the rest of you are too, minus the guys... the guys are dudes and they can be all kick ass and shit, but they can't be dolls... well they could be dolls if they reside in West Hollywood. (voice in my head: So homosexuals reside in one location? My answer: Yes. I purely relate all my opinions on pure 100% Demon fact. Just ask me and I will tell you. Have fun and enjoy the day. It is partly sunny here, I love the sun. good shit.

Update

I told kitten to tell me what to write about. She did. She asked me to write about my moving out of my home and getting my own place.

Well first, I did not live at home when I moved into my apartment. I lived in a group home for troubled teens. Me and my father got into arguments and had lots of problems. Minus a few bumps in between... I moved into a group home. I was there 16 - 18, never attended college and barely graduated high school.

I did not have a decent job lined up, when it was time for me to move and I remained rather poor and impoverished for the first year on my own. When my depression hit full heights due to my own decisions, I decided that either I must shoot myself or get a job. After careful planning I decided that it was time to start working.

I got odd jobs that were beyond disgusting and horrible pay. I worked everything from retail, construction, physical laborer (hauling brush, cleaning barns that were infested with dead rats, bailing hay, blue berry raking, etc)

I worked as a brick tender for a year, and finally the boss asked me to join his staff within the offices... I have been here since. been here for over three years.

My first apartment was a hell hole... my land lord/slum lord was a coke head.

I have since moved around in that time, I live in a loft apartment now and have a very cushy life, with good pay, more balanced outlook and appreciation for the past that I have had.

My first apartment kitten? Well it was more of an experience that changed me in ways I can not begin to list. It made me stronger, unbreakable (when you are starving- it adds strength), I have never backed down since then. I have to use a line from a Johnny Cash song - You have gravel in your gut and spit in your eye.

This was probably what you were not intending for a post. Yet it is the truth. :D