Monday, July 30, 2007

I do not consider people who draw my ire.

z

I had plenty to do this week prior, buying a house continues to present me with non stop jobs. Mowing the Law, moving our bedroom around, hooking up a nicer mail box and mail box post (I did not know they needed assembly). Non stopping there, hooking up my little dudes bedroom, changing out old beds with newer versions, Gardening - yes gardening, my lady is very clear on me helping her.
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We had taken the little dude to a party this weekend. This is where the topic of this post comes into play. The kids were great, it was fun. I played catch, assisted in handing out cake, enjoying the company of little people who never tired of anything, everything was fun to them. Their worlds where so complete when they had their juice, water melon, and cheap 50 cent toys. They have it better then I do.
One of the children had to leave soon. He became rather upset and was not listening, yet it seem more due to his mother being unclear with him, not speaking bluntly and clearly then him not wanting to listen. Children like to be loved, they love to be spoken to with eye contact. I saw that the mother was struggling with her emotions, she could not assist her child in a way that was positive.
I did not confront her, I did not even step in when she was yelling or being angry with a 4 year old. She spoke fast and complex for a child of that age. His ears did not understand what she was saying all he knew is she was mad, that was clear to me. He ran from her and laid on the ground crying. I set down the frisbee and walked over to the little guy.

"can you spell your name?" Was the first thing I asked.
He shook his head yes.
"you know spiderman can sign his name too" then I paused and smiled "is that who you are?"
The boy stopped crying "yes, um (meaning i'm) spidaman"
"Does spiderman listen to his momma" The smile not leaving my face.
He nods his head yes.
"you wanna see who can get to momma first" She was over by the table huffing and puffing.
He nodded happily and immediately we set off, I let him win of course.
Soon as he reached her, she looked at me and her eyes met mine and I could tell her anger was now directed at me.
"you know you are being a bit pushy" she said to me, then began yelling at her boy even though he came to her with a little encouragement, because going to her was a mistake or so that is what the boy learned.
In my thoughts, but not on my face... I knew that she would pay for her bad parenting with guilt and worry, not mention the rage... the self loathing of her all mistakes, her own issues directed at her son, the level of incompetence she had as a parent. This is not a bias account. She was cruel.

WHAT A BITCH.

Monday, July 23, 2007

My birthday... What a fucking bummer... Many more fun facts inside.

z

Is getting older suppose to suck, when does that switch happen? It was on the 17th and instead of being happy, I was angry... angry for things I am not willing to talk about, other then the emotion itself. When I was a kid I thought adults had it all figured out, I mean it was sold to me that way. Now that I am here... shit.

So yeah I have been bummed on the 17th and after. I withdrew not just from my blog, but my lady, little dude, friends and family.... not nice I know.I am fine now. I had to balance the issues that raged on within my head and I have come out a better person... Just needed to balance my own issues and I did.
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Random Useless News:
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  • I bought The Darkness
  • I am going to be doing another radio show this week.
  • I setup my living room more (we are unpacked, but not fully arranged- we are almost there)
  • Going to a birthing education class after work tonight.
  • Forced a stupid post that I deleted... I do not like writing a post out of a illogical feeling of obligation.
  • Have friends over Saturday evening. It was fun.
  • I watched Smokin' Aces - It was a very different movie. That is coming from me, trust me that is saying something.
  • Did some images searches on Google that I am going to share with you now.
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I have yet to see this film. I want to see this film. I believe it will be good. It has content that we all know the Demon23 loves. What more could I ask for?

Tom Waits(about smoking): The beauty of quitting is, now that I've quit, I can have one, 'cause I've quit.















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I am adding a new link on the right side of my blog. It is website that I really enjoy looking at it, the art is certainly up my alley. It is swathy... what does swathy mean? It is not a real word or atleast I do not believe it is.

  • Swathy: Dark in medium, smoke, colors are bland but yet beautiful, simplicity of blotches and a darkness just under service that serves the content. It could almost be a food for the eyes... the way it hangs on to your brain...
Without further delay
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Tuesday, July 17, 2007

I am taking another break.

z

I will be back someday... maybe.

Monday, July 16, 2007

God blocked my phone # and Satan put me on speed dial

z

I have always been at odds with religion. I never fully accepted any one belief. Never cared to, besides when I was a teenager. That is when I felt a war was needed against religion, how dare people believe what they want to. I have grown up since then.

I am not agnostic... well a little bit. I have always been more of deist. Deism is what I best can use to explain my feelings toward a belief in a higher power, my agnostic self is centered that I am not sure of any of "it".

Religion: A set of beliefs concerning the cause, nature, and purpose of the universe, esp. when considered as the creation of a superhuman agency or agencies, usually involving devotional and ritual observances, and often containing a moral code governing the conduct of human affairs.

I find that religion is not cut and dry. Muslims, Christians (many differ look at how it branches out), Pagans, Buddhists, etc.

What is one groups fact, is another's heresy. Each one yelling above the other "we got the message"
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What I would like to see from religious people.

  • Toleration of non-believers.
  • Extremist behavior makes people not want to listen to you.
  • Gays do not believe they are bad for being gay, holding signs that says they are will not make a difference. Why push for other people to have to live by your moral laws?
    • I.E What if I had you live by my moral laws which include going to church is a sin? You would not like it much, I am sure. Making laws to govern actions that are not your own and hurt no one, is unconstitutional
  • If something is not the way you want it, then tolerate it. This does not mean you like it, accept it nor have to be around it in your own home, property, etc. In public you will have to deal with two gay men kissing... just don't get turned on <---- that is a sin.
  • Your religion is not a science and should not be taught in science class.
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Non believers
  • Respect religion as you would the elderly, they have served their time.
  • Why does it matter if they do not believe the same as you.
  • Little Timmy can bring in the bible for free reading. Sarah can bring in the Quran. Matthew can bring in the Satan Bible.
  • Christians do not have to accept homosexuals, behaviors they consider sins, etc. All they have to do is tolerate. Do not try to convince them.
  • Why is it more acceptable to try convince religious people that their religion is not "good" but it is not acceptable for them to come our doors and bring their religion.
  • Come on atheists! Just because our dollar says "In god we trust" does not mean we bend over for god... it does not mean anything unless you put meaning in it, which seems atheists plan.
  • Extremists makes people not want to listen to you.
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In the end, directed at both groups
  • get along.
  • Stay out of each others business
  • Practice what you preach (hypocrites look silly)
  • What you find ill moral is not the same as everyone else... deal.

Take care.
Demon23

Friday, July 13, 2007

What the hell?

z

Recent: I could not fix my blog... I backed up what I could which was almost everything, thankfully. I tried several rough templates and found something similar to Kitten's setup... I have modified the hell out of my own though. I like my color scheme, I also changed the boarder sizes, and removed several widgets (that was easy) that I had no use for. I am now restoring most of my material... I was rather pissed earlier... I think I was seething. I mean it is like a car starting... it is normality, when normality is not present... no one is a happy pisser. I can not figure out what the hell happened to my blog. Friday the 13th is just a myth? hmmmm. It is but still I am going to blame it (Friday the 13th) anyways.

Earlier:
I am ready to put my fist through the screen. I have not fucked with my template and yet it is dead! I need to fix this... it will take me some time. I can not find my original template.

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

I am looking through the glass and can see myself on the otherside.

z

Me and Lady (my girlfriend) have been together for some time. Yet never have I experienced this any one person with what I experienced with her a few weeks ago.

She was sleeping in bed. I was playing video games. It was late at night, probably around 2:00 am. I slipped into bed, thinking myself none the wiser. I laid down next to her and was about to fall asleep, when I get hit in the arm by her and she sits right up in bed.

"Honey what are you doing!" Me
"Demon, where is it!?" Her
"Where is what?" Me "why are you hitting me?"
"where did you put it!?" Her
"uhhh put what" I am groggy and not with it.
"My vagina" Her
I could not begin to understand what she just asked me and almost started cracking up right there.
"Did you check under the couch?" Me
"No!" She laid back down and did not say another word.
I could not fall asleep for a while, trying to figure out what the hell that was all about. She had no memory of it the next morning. Still that is some funny shit.

Monday, July 9, 2007

This thing.

z

I stole this from Nicole.


Rules:
1. Each player lists 8 facts/habits about themselves.
2.
The rules of the game are posted at the beginning before those facts/habits are listed.
3.
At the end of the post, the player then tags 8 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know that they have been tagged and asking them to read your blog.

  • I have a disdain for religion, but do not question its place in our society. I usually tell people what they believe is fine. However this does not apply to the strangers that knock on my door asking about god (they stepped into my domain). "he does not live here, and he owes me 25.50 for pizza and beer. Now remove your holy ass off my door step... thanks"
  • I love clothing... I dig fashion. However this does not include genital waxing (women why do you do this!? ) or anal bleaching... WTF is up with that? I like looking good, but I am not a cat who can shove his ass in strangers faces and get away it... so why does it matter if my junk is hairless? Who the fuck would know, besides your lover? If they are already your lover then why would you need the treatment done in the first place? creepy. yep. Bat shit crazy.
  • I am always trying to push my conscience to let me know when to shut up... I have gotten myself into such trouble with my mouth. The alarm does not go off until after I said something I shouldn't.
  • I dislike PC behavior. I consider it dis genuine. I dislike fascists (politicians)
  • I do not believe in speaking about things I do not know much about. I believe in being educated on a subject before I open mouth.
  • I always consider myself respectful... until I get grumpy, uhh then not so much.
  • I do not have a license. Need to get one, strongly dislike cars... believe in public transportation. However still need one due to obligation.
  • I love movies, music, art, books, history. I feel that all of the communication for our times is measured within our production of these items. It is interesting to see. I am artsy fartsy no?
Kitten, Carrie, Kiley, and who ever else that wants to take it.

Hey

z

I am back. However very busy. Don't have the internet at home till the 20th. I am work catching up on all the stuff that has built for two weeks (at work)

I am a home owner now... I feel complete... in that aspect.

I still have a job. My continued employment looks good.

Thank you all for being supportive and kind. I would have replied to each one of you on the previous post, just too busy.

I will post a better post soon. I will make my rounds to your blogs later today or tomorrow. Take care. Thanks for all the support. :D

Demon23

 

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