Demon's 2 cents

Education Makes My World Small

2012-01-15T12:54:00.000-08:00

The more I understand, the more my map shrinks. Education, the highest of education is dizzying, knowing the finite truths of our existence, being that brink of what is to come next. The fourth dimension is time and we can not see it. Psychology is a walking stick, a "feeler" that assists us in seeing ourselves in the fourth dimension. Regardless of articles, media, the methodology is sound and does provide amazement, if one can open their minds to the critical possibilities available.

The "approach" is everything.

2012-01-07T15:44:00.000-08:00

Perfectionists equal fun.
D32 placed lighter on a hand rail pillar.
Partner, Jessica asks "Why did you sat that there?"
I said "It does not work"
J scowls at me "why not throw it away"
I smiled and said "It is fine"

She never asked why I was smiling, she never thought to, she was so irritated by the fact that I placed a lighter on a little support pillar. She picked up the lighter and walked hurriedly several feet from the shopping entrance and threw it in the nearest garbage can and walked back.

On the way home, she said, "you planned that didn't you?"
I said nothing, but I smiled and that was enough to get the silent treatment for an hour.
Wasn't laziness, I was bored. Needed something to do.

The Departure

2011-12-31T14:07:00.000-08:00

Seeing my friend leave, made me feel genuinely sad. He left about twenty minutes ago, and while I sit here smoking a bowl, I remembered how I first met him.

I was moving in over a year ago, today, and I smelled a faint smell of marijuana in the air, I turned and saw a peer sitting defensively; the first, and last time, I could get any such read off of him. I approached and smoothly handed a bag of smoke and requested if he could load it while I simultaneously took a break from moving. He agreed and then we

We hit it off, him and me. We liked similar music, politics (thinking in string theory, closest thing to politics), art, music. We became the family, we both wanted. I know that a year friendship is not one of long standing, but it was not the length but the quality of friendship and our personalities, ones that usually feel lonely in a sea of people. Reading my laments, translates into Emo. Ugh.

I am very strongly straight, I have no fear of the cock, but I am on a strictly no penis in ass foundation for personal well being as it does not arouse me. I believe real man say that shit, at least internally and not wish harm upon others for whatever conditions they maybe hiding from themselves. My strong foundation of sexual preference gives me a freedom that most men can not afford;

I love my buddy like he was a brother and I will miss him. I hope he has good fortune, he will be visiting in a month or so. Here is to a new year without him.

Back to listening to some tunes,

D32

My Daughter

2011-12-29T11:41:00.000-08:00

She painted a barbie green, purple and something else and called it a "Zombieeee, ahhhh" then said (as if she was zombie barbie) "All hail Plankton!" in semi-zombie voice.

I love my daughter's much-ness and cretaceous lizard like manner.
All who meet her, will eventually chant her name and or her deeds either with great horror or joy and few will take an indifferent stance, as she creates strong reaction in a population. Her name is Darth Chloe.

Peace, y'all
D32

The Devil Is In The Details

2011-12-27T07:38:00.000-08:00

I read Fox News articles, then read the comments, for fun. I am surprised there is not blood in our streets, with so many varying opinions and how much hate accompanies almost every one of them. Fox News is not that different from CNN or NBC. The articles themselves differ by selection of importance, a few stories differ from site to site. Overall, they all use suggestive language/pointed language for political gain or influence, but to what who's end?

News Biz is corrupt, always has been, besides notable moments in history. This is not to say that the power of information is a farce, quite the contrary. Information can make the weak, strong and the stronger, weaker, or more powerful. This means information is a planetary constant. I am just worried about all of these corporations having a powerful weapon, who few are aware of.

It is not hard to believe my following statement:

"If I can control the words, then I can control the people"

Peace,

D3m0n32

Holidays...Whatever

2011-12-25T18:57:00.000-08:00

Christmas was nice, but it was hectic as most everyone's was. I find myself a stranger among my own family members. I feel connected to them as much as an ultra white conservative feels connected to Muslims of the middle east. It is that warm feeling that keeps me smiling. I love them, but we do not mix and we rarely see each other.

No judgments do I have against them, just what is. They think I judge them, deduction of their behavior tells me this. I am not better then them, just different from them. Different does not mean better.

Disclaimer: I keep all my opinions and beliefs to myself

I am smarter, but what does that get me? A lonely seat by myself. yay, go me. :)

I wish all of you, a happy holiday. I am sure I will do multiple posts before the new year.

Peace,

Demon32

Here I am... again

2011-12-24T08:43:00.000-08:00

I was looking through old digital material, and found some images I used on this blog. I could not resist, I came online once again, almost a year to the day.

Reviewing my own work has always been painful, my writing is terrible to my eyes. Even what I write now.
Here I am, none the less, with calmness and steady hands-- I return to write.

This blog is a monument to my personal strife, failures and successes.
It is me and I am it. I will never stray far ever again.

The Demon32 is truly back

Happy New Year... I have a gift.

2011-01-01T05:42:00.000-08:00

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He is not super well known, if you do not enjoy his music; Shut up.

Happy New Years
Demon

Inspiration + Coffee + Hand Rolled Smokes = Productivity of 0%

2010-12-30T07:20:00.000-08:00

Time Be Slithering away

I feel I have changed since the years previous. I understand that the internet populace would not be emotionally vested in my mental well being and why should they be? I wouldn't constitute me as cold or that I do not read drivel; I just write it.

The paragraph format does not work for my blog. It just destroys the alignment of the written work. Errr, what garbage. I do not believe I will ever put money into this blog or acquire my own domain. Just not worth it to me. I considered chic to be cheap, and cheap to look good, I look damn fine and I consider myself quite cheap.

Infrequent Posts Will Be The Rule

I enjoy writing, I enjoy the way words feel to me, call me strange and I will champion you with a new name; captain obvious. I digress. The point being I will not be writing often. If I happen to write often, considered it a fluke, if becomes common place for a period of time... considered it a long fluke.

Well, I have a post with no substance, how grand. Well I must say farewell, or I could write forever, have a good one.

D3m0n32, says peace.

What? I wrote this shit?

2010-12-16T16:46:00.001-08:00

I reviewed my previous posts. I did not like them, how horrible was my grammar? I can not begin to explain the craving, no; the addiction digging into my head as it was, the need to repair every fucking post that has been posted.

While I was/am writing this post, I am deciding to keep every previous written post as it was too show the progressions I have made as a successful writer.

I am sure I will still make grammar mistakes and while I am not okay with this, I should not remove material for prosperities sake. Even if it is just for me.

Peace

Demon32

How things have changed.

2010-12-16T04:29:00.000-08:00

Hello and Good morning,

I have just completed my last final. I stared at my reflective past and found that I missed this blog. I missed it, like a man would miss the connective warmth of a womans breast. So yeah my blog is a breast that I want to nuzzle... uhhh, I forgot my point.

Things that have changed:

Laid Off

Foreclosed home

- was hard, but over and done with

- change was required

Realized there was no jobs in this area

- could not find a solution that would have saved my house

- I lost my previous wage and felt the aftermath of loss.

- I enrolled in college and was accepted a year almost to date after losing my home.

I am happy now, I have faced the shit behind my eyes. It is good to be back, I think I will be around for a long time. Age has taken this face of mine; it only has been around 2-3 years, but it could have been a fuckin life time and then some.

Peace readers,

Demon32

Comments have went the way of the dinosaur. Real Date: 3/18/08

2008-03-17T10:43:00.001-07:00

Found this interesting Gaming website: XGen Studios
The link will be contained within their logo on the left or right panel. Not sure of it's exact placement. Try out their newly released Pillage The Village. Yes of course their games are free and require no downloading.

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Did I ever mention Coffee before?
I have not bothered looking at all my posts, but the answer yes... yes I have.

Each morning - this is the stuff that wakes me up, but it is not Folgers.

1. I hate corner store coffee.
2. I hate Styrofoam cups, they have a taste to them.
3. I love strong coffee, either double brewed or has extra strength to begin with.
4. (everyone hates them) I love Star Bucks. Hook me up with any gift cards or anything you have but not willing to purchase.

If you highlight this section; you where never suppose to see the text. I am using this text as a holder to make the text that you read more appeasing to the eyes. This way my format remains the way I wish.

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Do you drink coffee?
What is your fav kind of caffeinated drink and why is good to you?
Fav place to attain coffee? (I.E. Starbucks, Tim Hortons, Mcdonalds, etc)
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Updating my blog

I am updating my columns, I will be changing my description, and all kinds of shit. So if you are reading and or you are commenting... expect really weird things to happen if it is at the same time of me changing stuff around.

What I promised.

2008-03-10T07:27:00.000-07:00

Video
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- A quick hello.
- Complaining about my weight gain.
- I ramble, what a surprise... about drugs again, wanting to quit smoking, etc.

Just found this from an old blog that has not been updated in over a year, but I have to share it.

Here I am ::updated::

2008-03-08T21:32:00.001-08:00

The Video
- I am in it.
- Poor visual quality
- Increase your volume to it's highest setting (Usually there is multiple audio sliders)
-1 on the player in question, 1 on the bottom right corner, and then if you are using a lab top, then master control.
-Make sure that you jack'em all... or else you would not hear me in the video.
- the Audio is not good, by not good... I mean really bad.
- This would not post correctly last night.
- I will be making another video today.
- It will be better then this one, I will make damn sure.

I am going to be working on labels for all my old posts. When I need a break from reading all my posts, I will come by and comment on your all blogs.

::UPDATED MOVIE::

Chloe ... she is so cute.

The Typical Day Is Rarely Typical.

2008-03-07T05:50:00.001-08:00

::Updated:: The Picture is now linked to the website::Updated::

Kontraband is one of the best websites. I have been looking for a banner on their website and have yet to find one. Now if you want to check out Kontraband, be my guest but click on the picture that is where the link be. I am rather happy today is Friday. I am enjoying a cup of hot coffee.... mmm coffee.
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My plan of action for my blog. Tell me what you think?

1. I will be signing up to CafePress.com again. This time I hope to stick to my plan. I am not good at doing that and or things get in the way, mostly the first rather then latter reason is why. I am going to be signing up to make shirts, coffee cups, etc.
2. It is as lame as it sounds. I will come up with clever phrases, and more unusual and vulgar stuff that seems out of place.
- "Official Vagina Measurer"
- "Cum, it is good, but not on toast"
- "Jesus Does Not Love you"
- "Porn is as good as it gets in my mom's basement"
- "I play video games because I can't get laid"
- "I like to contemplate suicide... alone" depicts a stick figure closing the door on another stick figure.
- "Are you really reading this or using it as an excuse to stare at my tits?" on the back it says "Do not use my shirt in a pick up line"
- "It's not that liberals are better, it is not that Conservatives are better... just both are pretty fucking stupid to me"
- Stick Figure who is behind a podium saying "We do not accept money to pigeon hole bills". The back of the shirt says "Politicians... The New Mafia"
- "We have cleaned up the streets, we have taken down the the racketeering, we have made a difference" Some politician stick figure at a podium, on the back of the shirt it says "Support you state government lotteries but not gambling"
3. Creating a logo for my blog.
4. I am going to changing out some of my content, reviewing what I have and updating my labels on every post. 170(something) posts to go through.
5. I am going to be resurrecting my WTF series, even though it never got off the ground.
6. I am going to be doing video blogs as often as I can, regardless of the quality...
7. Starting from Scratch on making images for each blog. I truly mean this.
8. Most of these milestones will be reached before Monday, The 10th of March.
9. I am excited to get all of this done, I hope I do not lose interest.
10. Well... I am going to get some work done. Hope everyone has a good Friday night, and you will all see a lot of me on the weekend.

Dream a little dream, then scream into the sky...

2008-03-03T05:53:00.000-08:00

"I want to buy you apricot tea" The small animal with pearly eyes said to me.
"Well how would this work, you are a furry animal with pearly eyes" I said in reply.
"Well you are the one that took the acid"He giggled "Why do you think this text appears in crayon?"
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So have you seen the trailer for The Dark Knight?

The answer would have to be yes, if not... then the answer should be yes, after you click the link and watch for 2 minutes and 7 seconds.

Did I mention Heath Ledger is in it (knowing that most of my viewers are women)
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Well this we as quick stop in, I must go now. Have a good one people.

No apology this time.

2008-02-28T09:43:00.000-08:00

Things for all of you to know.

1. I suck, but not gay like... all about the metaphors.
2. Computer needed to be reformatted (all my files went up in smoke... no I could not back them up)
3. My hours have been reduced to 24 hours/wk
4. I have totally neglected my blog, see answer 1.
5. I have totally neglected my dream of having my blog becoming an internet mind control device.
6. This is my 171'st post.
7. I was debating on wearing boxers today. Not really, but I wanted to say something like this, just to see if you are reading. Now the question is if I am wearing any?
8. Who the fuck keeps dumping Maine cash down the freaking drain? red or blue, no matter the color they will lie and cheat, yay for politics.
9. Housing foreclosures are up! yay for all homeless people they will not be as alone.
10. I miss you all.

2008-02-04T07:14:00.000-08:00

Before this last Friday, I have been depressed and came out of it over the weekend. My job is in jeopardy, I had two mortgages due, bills of every nature and color, only $60 was for my internet and 20 channel cable(ghetto cable)... that was the only frivolous spending in bills. Yet that was at 200 something... that is how far behind I was... I was some fucked.

I have neglected my blog and my online friends and for that I am sorry. I have just been falling apart for a few months and it was building and it was not intentional to not attend my blog/online friends.

I got my income tax money and all of it went to bills, besides $300 (Our family has not been treated in sometime). I spent almost $2,100 on lose your house/ lose your car/bills etc. It was a good feeling, but I did not know what to do with myself... I was rather shut down... I mean for so much stress to be gone so quickly... I did not have the knot in my stomach, I did not have the hazy frustration at no one single thing or person. It was all gone and I have not felt that for so long... I had to grow into the position of not worrying, for months I have been sick to my stomach and now all of sudden I am not. It was very unusual.
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I have been working on your link pics. I only have 3 ready and I want to release them as a set (all of my readers together)

I can not find my Camera... I am getting frustrated.

2008-01-30T05:30:00.000-08:00

Well I am sorry, I promised and did not deliver. I am good at that. It appears that fate does not want me to film or record my voice online... maybe fate is a critic.

I am getting my Tax Return soon. That will be nice. I love money, who doesn't?

I really do not have much to post on. Hmmmm...

Update

2008-01-28T06:29:00.000-08:00

I am stopping in to let you all know I am still working on your link pictures. I have tried to make three, yes three audio posts, something is wrong with the save feature(I think, hope it is not the hardwired storage device) on my mp3 player. That is why instead of an audio post, there will be a video post.

The Video Post Will Have

I have something I want to ramble on about, something very important to me.
Me in a suit and tie, due to work I will look prim and proper.
It will be filmed in my basement room of my house.
It will be posted tonight

I will comment on your blogs tonight and reply to your comments tonight.

Here is something I filmed a while ago and posted, yet it was in march of last year, so for those of you who just met me.

Click To Play

The Dreams of Evil Elvis Impersonators

2008-01-16T05:25:00.001-08:00

I sprayed febreeze on my hand thinking it was shaving cream this morning.

The bottles look completely different
I just had the shaving cream can in my hand
My hand now smells like febreeze

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Audio posts

I have not done an audio post in sometime
I may do one again, maybe tonight after work. My mp3 player is at home, so it is not an option on my lunch.

This is a question to all of you.
What do you want me to ramble about?

Note: The host I use to store my audio files removes them after so many days, so all my old files are gone forever. I did not know this at the time and only found out recently.
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LA Artwork
Three kick ass artists are on this site

I would like you all to stop on over and check out their collection. It is worth it. Trust me.
They are going to be added to my collection of side links, until they tell me my site is tasteless and stupid and that they do not want to be associated with me.

Can't blame them, Jesus said the same thing to me just last week.
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My ambitious project

You my readers, most of you have links and all of you should have links before the end of this week.

I am going to be adding images to your links...
I will be doing the artwork myself and if you have an image that you strongly identify with, I will use it. Unless it makes my blog look shit (not so much the image, but the margins and such) then which I will screw with said image until it works.

Have a good one. Remember email me images, I will edit and or do what I need to make them work. No matter the size, or a rendition.

If you do not have one, as above, I will make you one. If you are offended, then well... I will take it down *sniff, sniff*
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Demon "no I am not gay" 23
Have a good one folks.

Have you ever seen this?

2008-01-10T06:00:00.000-08:00

Do you like soup? I don't, if you like it, I hate you. Just a little.

2008-01-08T09:52:00.000-08:00

Update

Jess sent this to me via hallmark and I wanted to share it with all of you. It is funny. I found it on youtube and I demand that you watch it. It is only 1 minute and 13 seconds. Please devout the time, you will enjoy it.

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Dr. Phil "If you can't stand the heat" he pauses for affect "then get out of the kitchen"
and everyone applauds... can I have his job? doling out common sense as if it was pancakes seems rather hard, but I bet I am up to the task.
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Dude, did he just say "I want to pee in your mouth"?

2008-01-07T09:06:00.000-08:00

I have been having a hard time with ambition... <--- I do not have any. I do not cop-out, I just do not have it as I should compared to others. I am responsible for myself and no one is responsible for me. That being said... I need to get some shit done. Have a good one people. The next part of this post, some other time... will be. ::Why I have little or no ambition, a losers guide to displacing blame:: <--- the cool part is, it was not written by Bush.

The world as it is.

2008-01-04T05:39:00.000-08:00

Funny conversation
My dad "The individual liberties of each person has been trampled on more and more each year"
Me The Demon "I know Americans should have the personal right to decide what they can put into their bodies"

His look was priceless. I was alluding to my belief about use of drugs. He knew it too. Priceless.
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Guns
"look at Canada, they have less crime then us" My co-worker states "It is because of hand guns not being allowed"
"well maybe that has to do more with the state affairs of our population then gun control"
"How would people commit crime, if they did not have guns?" My co-worker
"Do you have a lock on your front door?" D23
"Of course I do, what does this have to -" CW
"Who would it keep out?" D23
"uhh people?" CW
"What kind of people?" D23
He stares at me.
"Honest people, it will keep out honest people" D23 "some one looking to break in would not be stopped only slightly deterred"
He stares at me some more
"Is something to do with the defense of your home?" His face contorting into confusion.
"Laws are made for the honest, the illegal is made of the dishonest, who would have the guns, if not the honest?"
"Demon that is not neccesarily accurate"
"Are there still drugs?"
"yeah"
"We spend over 20 billion a year to get rid of em, what do you think will happen with guns?"
He shook his head for a second, but kept hold onto his belief. I was happy enough to shake his foundation.
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Even if people do not agree with me, I like poking their beliefs in legality, spiritual judgment of others, intelligent political debates and general values as a whole.

Making people think! :D

Boom, I am back and with a sword. The date above is incorrect. 12/27/07 is when I did this entry.

2007-12-14T10:05:00.000-08:00

I have been living life, busy, depressed and struggling with many extreme situations on my plate. I am doing better now and am back in the saddle again <---- I do not like that song, too much hair. Well it has been some time, so lets see what has been happening D23's life (I am pretending that you all care)

I was at the my local grocery store to get the following

Salad stuff
Garlic bread
Hamburger

Was not looking for but found...

Ex girl friend

Could not give her back
She has fallen so far down that she smells...

yes I did say smells.
She has fallen apart... soo much uglier, wtf happened.

Good thing she hugged me

Because I would never have use the bath of lye for myself unless this kinda situation arose.

Worst part, I hate her for looking like shit. I did not have sympathy, but hate and extreme loathing

I Would not release Jess from my side if she was by my side, she was not by my side at the time of the "finding" but when I got home, I was like a freakin foofoo dog.

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I watched The Departed with Jess during the last week, literally...

Jess loved it. It was a good movie. How could one not love it.

I also saw The DaVinci Code. It was so goood.
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I got an early Christmas present

Assassin's Creed

I am not going to bore you about this, but lets say... holy shit, even if you don't play video games... holy shit. Update: I beat this game, still have more to do though. Extremely great story.

Well that is it for now.

Do you ever taste the plastic?

2007-11-26T05:24:00.000-08:00

I am so horrid at posting, but this is becoming the rule and not so much the exception. So I should just start stating when I am not horrid at posting, because then that would be news.

--- When the sun sets in the evening?

Do you pass without getting wet?
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I have taken a long look at myself, I see fatal flaws in so many people. Yet if I forget to look at myself, then I become them.

If I fail at my direction then that is me and not anyone else's problem but my own. I do not believe society is to blame for my existence in the status quo.

Do you know anyone that does not submit to the universal law that I speak?

Miserable aren't they? Insane, not really, but certainly living a lie. Pathetic, just a little?

My biggest fear is being disabled by fear.

What is your biggest fear?
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I hope I have time to reply to your previous comments on an early post and come and visit your blogs during my lunch. Which runs between 11:00 - noon Eastern time.

I want to join the Republican Army... I want to join the Christian Brigade

2007-11-15T06:24:00.000-08:00

Me and my lady talked about our cat: Shadow.

His personality: He is not graceful, but he does not have to be. He is very strong, extremely so actually. He loves to rail his head into your leg, arm, chest, etc. as a form of affection. He hates to play with the other two cats we have, yet will kick their ass and or any other cat if they piss him off. He is a warrior, but will only walk where there is rug or soft comfy places compared to the other two, who will sleep anywhere.

Anyways... so we were talking about him. My lady thinks if he was human he would be... wait let me do this in speech version.

D23 - "Shadow would be German"
My Lady - "No, he would be British"
D23 - "Why British?"
My Lady "because he is royalty or believes he is"
D23 - "So all the British people are royalty?"
ML - "Why German?"
D23 - "Because he is a German Warrior, and because he is a nazi"
ML - "You are weird"
D23 - "Shadow just seems to be a nazi german warrior and bad guy, he would make an excellent villain"
Blank stare.... I impressed her and Shadow with my insight... obviously.

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Music every one needs. <--- so decreed by Demon or as Kitten puts my handle D23.

Robot Ate Me (what follows are songs by them that I enjoy)

Jesus & Hitler
Republican Army
Apricot Tea
Genocide Ball

Clare Fader

Betty Crocker's Bail

Temposhark

Don't mess with me (the first minute is kinda emo, but after that... hahaha)

Vox Vermillion

Arrival/Departure

Optiganally Yours

Poodleman

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I got my lady to watch Alien.

She loved it, most people forget the worthy film due to its many sequels, yet the 3rd one was one of the best. It was sad, but beautiful.

I wonder if I put this here and then I put this thing over here... will it do something cool?

2007-11-08T05:58:00.000-08:00

I have been gone for a while (last entry 10/23/07)

I have nothing really to add. I am not sure what to post about. My life is pretty drab as this point. Chloe makes it all the better. She is my little chubby cheek princess. Yet the lack of funds is a nightmare. I need money. Lots of it. Yes need is the keyword.

I know I will bitch about money and our system, Maine has some of the highest tax rates and worst job placement in the country

I have never understood why countries award unproductive behavior, and screw the rich. Yes the rich do get screwed. Yes they hide their wealth and do tax write offs, but wouldn't you if you lost 35% of your gross income and assets every year? I think you would. Yes the rich have to pay a third of their wealth to the American government, that means you have a hundred dollars it just went to 65. That is nuts.

I am not against monetary assistance to the needy, but I do believe in stricter regulations, less over head management and more doers for the system. I find that our welfare system is broken. We reward the negligent and rip apart the people that make money.

I am given a hefty sum of money at the end of the week. I have a hundred and seventy dollars removed by the state and federal.

If I work a day less, I lose a hundred and twenty five You see my point? Why does me making more, mean I make less? I do not understand the situation.

It is almost like my country is telling me to not work hard, because they will cover me if I am a failure. This is a frustrating message we give our countrymen. Make more and you will be held to a higher expectation.

Now before people may think I am against the poor. I am against the poor that do the following

Chain smoking (they are on state assistance and have three kids) <--- if this is any of you, I am not changing my opinion. Think of it as you are borrowing mom and dad to eat, do you then spend that money on junk food? You can chain smoke all you want, but a condition to having money from other tax payers should mean no buying smokes. Mind you, I am talking strictly about the unemployed and non-intact family (baby breeding factories, they exist in Maine in large amounts<---get some condoms).
Drinking beer, drinking lots of it. <---- as above.
Lavish spending at the beginning of each month instead of covering your actual expenses with your state check. While your children walk around in grimy clothing.

Yet the mother who works part time, has a special needs child at home, may smoke and drink now and again, that I can understand. She is trying! Or he is! whoever. People who work and still get some help (very hard to do) they are entitled to less control then the people I talked about above.

I have experienced what I have described first hand, I have known the people I speak of as family members, acquaintances, and case studies (my job)

Our country is in a sad state of affairs, but it could be worse.

Middle class get it in the ass. Mind you I am bending over right now. I make too much money for heating assistance... fuck me.

The power of a lvl 32 sword and loving cartoons is better then being a priest for the purpose of no sex.

2007-10-23T05:40:00.000-07:00

I got tagged to do this survey by Kitten.
There are rules: I cannot repeat anything the other survey taker said and I have to list "5 things that I do, did or like that I’m proud of, but that others may think are totally lame". Plus, I get to tag 5 people to do the same.

1. I love image editing. I like taking an original image altering, while keeping most of the realism, minimum touches to paint a different picture. My proudest moment was when I edited the perspective of an umbrella make it was facing the opposite direction, the best (I almost said breast instead of best, don't even ask) part you could barely tell what I did with the picture.

2. I watch cartoons. I dig cartoons, I love cartoons. I usually just put it on the fact that I have a 7 year old. Yet that is simply not true. I would watch sponge bob alone.

3. I am into music that is rarely popular. Some of it is truly offensive and the rest is just outright weird. That does not mean I want to be different or I am against the grain to get noticed (I have been accused of these things and more). I just love really weird music or stuff that you don't hear everyday. While some of it is tame, most of it is not. People find my music out right lame.

4. I am very opinionated. How can that be lame right? Well you ever made an off handed comment without much thought and then that guy in the office rips ya a knew one? yeah that would be me... I have lots of friends... really I do.... they are just all in my head. I have gotten a little better.... really... stop looking at me.

5. I organize my equipment on video games. Yes you heard me correctly. Oblivion is one such game that goes on forever and never ends (sorta does but after beating the main quest, you can do more) anyways. I organize the equipment by house 1st, then per that house by chamber and chests, weapons, potions, misc items, and power weapons and potions and misc items. Oh yeah before I met Jess, I got laid a lot. yeah... I am cool like that. This is ultra lame.
"I have lvl(<--- an abbreviated word for level) 32 sword,
will you have sex with me?" <---- I never actually said this nor did I get laid a lot.

I tag anyone that wants to do this.

I want to be the hunk man... I want to be the superman... I want to be the ball.

2007-10-19T08:07:00.000-07:00

I added my Pandora stations on the left column. Check'em out. The one titled 'Lacks Description' really does lack description.

The other two (I almost spelled two as tue) stations are interesting enough. They are growing and I need to edit them constantly so they do not begin to suck. Well anyways you should be clicking on these because... well I do not have a reason but click anyways

GTG, have a good one.

mEGg-a pOsT! I know that is incorrect spelling...

2007-10-16T05:48:00.000-07:00

So she said yes, she has a big ol'rock on her hand. I have happy times ahead of me. I am paving the way for completion to a better life. I am going to be starting my own thing up on the side. It will be a source of extra income at first and if it takes off, then I will be doing it full time. I will tell you more about it in the coming weeks. :: No Pic because I suck::

My baby girl falls asleep in my arms at night, I walk her around our house. I made her. I made life. I made progeny. A continuation of ourselves, albeit a better version... then our previous and so on and forth. *Does a little dance* I have brought this up many times. Yet I never tire of it. You all may have, but that is okay.
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Here are somethings I think you would all find interesting. Some of you may already know about these places and things. Did you know about all the features? No this is not a paid post, I will gladly whore my blog for advertising things I dig.

Heroes. Excellent show. Did you know you can watch the episodes online? only that season of the year. So you never need Tivo or to record. You will have the episodes that you need from last week. Click on the pic to be taken to the site.

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Kontraband is a collection of the unusual. I love it, check it out when you have time. It something worth looking at from time to time.
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I know Carrie knows about this, but do the rest of you? It is Pandora... it is the jazz that is... delicous, music sipping like it was coffee. An aroma all of your own flavor. More often then not you will dig the style of the tunes they play for you or atleast better then the radio. Click the pic.
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Everybody knows about winamp. Yet did you know about the TV? yeah you can watch tv shows, movies, and stream music.

All free including the software itself, but most people already know that.

Click on Shoutcast TV, under the media library tab.

Note: Update your winamp to the most latest version.

If you figure out that there is text here. Good for you. Margins and shit are not working. My page look is getting fucked up.
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<-- The block is my home town, nobody needs to know that. This Google Desktop. If you have a gmail account, then this is even more rocking, even stand alone it is has it's rocking features. You can add, change, alter... Mainstream software. It is so... *sheds a tear* pretty. Hey I have a lady, I do not need to pretend to not be a geek. Not that I ever pretended to not be one. I have a lions chest and a D10 sword for my battle face. The EULA agreement rocks and all that, very easy to read. Read it. So no myth about Google being the evil corporate machine. M$ still has that title and will continue for many years to do so. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

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If you figure out that there is text here. Good for you. Margins and shit are not working. My page look is getting fucked up.
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This is Funny. If you do not agree, then you will lose one testicle. Women will have to oddle to a picture of three's a company.

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Here are some oldies, but goodies of past pics and other materials. I am going grey in text to emphasize the power of the past! I so need more coffee. COFFEE ::growl:: *thinks about knocking out fellow co-worker and stealing his, then remembers what happened with the guy and the cigarette*

Dude - I hate being away for so long. Who are all of you?

2007-10-04T05:27:00.000-07:00

What is going on?

I feel that I need to write a post, one has long been overdue.
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My Random Rants

I am drinking Tim Hortons coffee and he is pissed. Why name coffee after some one? It makes me feel like I am stealing some ones coffee. I have become addicted to the TV show Heroes... I have had no sex in over a month! I have had 5 to 6 hours a sleep a night, and the voices keep telling me that it is time to wash my hands again. Life could not be sweeter. My random delightful rants are missed? aw thanks guys.
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Family Fun Facts (nothing but F's)

Chloe is doing great the little sweet pea that she is, my best little bud is doing really well, he likes 1st grade. Yet there is big news on the family front... something that only a few people know about within the inner regime. I am proposing to my lady this weekend. I will post a pic of the ring on Monday. I know she will say yes. "When are you going to marry me" <------ big indicator huh? I have heard this for several months even before Chloe came into the picture.
No my lady does not know about it.
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I will reply to all of your comments and stop by everyones blog for a hello. Take care.

I am thinking... and it hurts.

2007-09-27T09:53:00.001-07:00

I have not posted as much as I used to. I do not even check my email, xboxlive messages, and have had little (but some) time to play video games. Man I am getting old, I watched a VHS and get this, it was a recorded episode of Law & Order... I know that makes me old and to make it worse.

I fell asleep through it! wth?

Minus that, I want to get back into blogging and playing gears, bioshock, and oblivion... I want to chat with the mighty Kim (she is better at gears then me), hang out with any of my buds online, and shoot things. I miss commenting on all your blogs and appreciate that you do comment on mine.

I also have not had time to work on some of my dead projects. My writing project - I want to be a super hero, my WTF series (My perfection issues have gotten in the way of this), my audio's, or even a youtube salute...

Does it sound like I am complaining? I know it does, I want all the stuff that I used to do to come back to me now... up until I look at my little princess, my little Chloe. Then the sacrifices of spare time become clear and I can not ask for anything better then my beautiful little baby girl just looking at me.

Back to work I go. Take care.

What are we cursed with?

2007-09-26T08:56:00.001-07:00

Remember when I did that little game with the word politics? Well here is the new word.

Sex

Dirty thoughts in re: My Lady or any and all women (no offense, but ask your significant male readers, husbands, boyfriends, male friends and ask them quickly and bluntly, how many women they want to see naked, they will give you a blank stare or just lie -badly- about it, they might be honest and say all of them. Men are built to be pigs.
The process of making a child
Porn
Something all people want
A hotter commodity then cars, houses, and gold...
The humor of denial around the word.
Inability to come to grips with our over sexualized country (America) and yet not talking about it.
Telling our teenagers never to have it.
Abstinence does not work.
Sexual education needs to be reworked.
Lack of honesty in a sexual relationship
Man I could go on for ever <---- yeah this not apart of the list, but I like to cheat.

And Demon23 gets his first A+ ever on anything besides drama class (how do you fail drama class?)

Take care and enjoy.

oh for you that are new, which will probably be none. How this works: I state a word and whatever comes to mind- write it. The comments can be anything, rant, off topic, serious, milk man theories, etc.

Do you feel safe? I do, but then again this does not surprise me.

2007-09-20T06:17:00.000-07:00

Below are all live security cameras that watch the masses, no they are not porn oriented, even though I do not control the content that you are viewing. These cameras and more are available to any who can find them and even control them, taking snapshots, rotation, etc. Pretty cool huh? Yeah I did not think so, but what a day and age we are in huh?

http://128.175.99.120/view/view.shtml
http://webbkamera.engelholm.se:8080/view/index.shtml
http://131.204.163.245/view/view.shtml
http://213.73.72.96/control/userimage.html <---- good view. Very pretty, not in America.

http://64.21.226.243/view/index.shtml <--security camera to a store? yep. That is what it is.

This one is the funniest. I was messing with the pan and zoom, also making it move funny... and people pointed at it! hahaha.
http://62.218.22.115/indexFrame.shtml?newstyle=One&cam=1

copy and paste the above addresses into your browser. Pretty crazy if you ask me.

Stupid comes in all all types.

2007-09-13T09:31:00.000-07:00

I am starting a new thing. I am good at starting new things but never finishing them. This one will be easy and not so hard to keep up with. I will state one word from that one word, what can you think of? It is very liberal on purpose. Here it begins. I will provide my answers below and then you guys can answer via comments.

Politics
What comes to mind when this word is mentioned?

Bullshit (despite whatever party)
Two millionaires arguing about middle class America.
Several millionaires speaking about the good of the people, then accepting lobbying donations from insurance, oil, health care, etc. companies. A year later they will all strike down bills that would have helped us the people, who voted them in. Funny enough the bills that were struck down would have hurt the companies that paid the donations.
Two people arguing and using well thought educated speech with such phrases as

"Liberals are destroying our way of life"
"Conservatives are fascists controlling Christian freaks"
"Damn liberals are godless folk"
"Conservatives would rather believe in a false god then science"

Politics - what a beauty. Now it is your turn. You do not have to be serious, long, or to the point, just what comes to mind. Have fun with it.

I adjust with time.

2007-09-10T05:57:00.000-07:00

I found this non lame bored site. Many sites exist, but suck. This one is nice. Staying up at odd hours and not being able to sleep provides opportunity for finding unique gems.

This is my avatar. I got it off the website. Just ctrl (hold) then press (prt scr) Print Screen. Then open up MSpaint, and then click paste (under edit) then some basic art tools.

See the site does what it is intended to do. Entertain you and keep you busy (even though I am busy enough)

Here is the site.

Here is the avatar page.

I have additional sites available (that I have known about for some time) I will link them later in the week.

Chloe giggled last night when I made it. My lady was telling me it was just gas (her giggling) I told my lady nope, it was because she liked daddy's avatar.

I can not remember the last time I did a weekend post. Yet my lack of attention to this blog, requires one... besides Chloe is sleeping.

2007-09-08T06:33:00.000-07:00

Where have I been?

Work was piled on me, I have been very busy, even before the birth of Chloe.
A few of my friends, not just one or two but three have left for college. I will miss them. I do not know if I will see them again, so I hung out with them and saw them off.
Had to keep up around the house, taking care of general maintenance and what not.
In the end, I have been here but just beyond busy.

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So what you all been up to? I have not had time to look at your blogs. I will make my rounds as the day goes on...

well Chloe is up, I need to help. I hopefully will be back on today. Take care.

Many things have hapened since my last post. However none of it matters due to the fact that I am a father.

2007-09-06T07:12:00.000-07:00

I do not have time to post more right now. Yet here is some pictures of Chloe and my lady. I will have more later today. I am sorry for not posting. 3 days and a 1/2 - 15 hours of sleep. I am very tired and very happy... Here is my beautiful little girl.
She was born on labor day, she weighed 8 lbs and 5 ounces she was 20' and a half. My lady had no epidural, pain medication, etc. It was completely natural birth. Take care.

When I sing, dolphins die.

2007-08-21T09:28:00.000-07:00

Definition for this post:

The System

The database that holds all of the collective information for our agency that practices therapy. Images (scanned signatures and compliance policies), clinical data, etc.

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When I use the system and I am moving at a few clicks, I feel like I am playing a symphony of vast proportions. I feel like I can make the system dance. I had a meeting with the big wigs yesterday, they said I was indispensable I never felt so good. Five years I have worked for this company, I am in my mid 20's and to hear this from two PHD's was beyond rocking. They also want to be taught how to use the system, I am their right hand man or so they told me.

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I was told to slow down the last time I showed the chairman of the directors, what I do. Hahaha. It went something like this.

"What is it that you are doing?" Director (D)
"I just cross referenced the last date of a client's session and compared it to the treatment plans last plan active date, then compared that to the cases termination date, and from there I deleted the the most recent treatment plan because it was not required, the provider terminated it too late, creating erroneous tx plans."
"You uhh, you did that fast and you did answer my question" then he looked at a co-worker and wiped his forehead "Why I am still confused then" He quipped.

When the company stabilizes I could be seeing a raise (there is no promotion, I am the only one that does what I do) but who knows in 20 years, maybe I would get a seat at the big guy and gal table... It appears I have impressed the powers that be.

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I have also been busy dazzling them(the above mentioned) and working my ass off, we have 10 months to prepare for an audit and I do not want to fuck around. I need to get my shit done and there has been several wars with the therapists (they hate me for the most part) about getting their work done right the first several times.

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I have been so busy and the baby could be coming any day now. I will post a picture of her. My baby Chloe (yes that is spelled correctly), my princess. soo many changes feel so scary and so good. I am a young professional, I never thought I would be here. Damn, feels so good and I am so proud to be where I am.

It is all about the 12 dollar shoes!

2007-08-17T11:27:00.000-07:00

Meet
Quazar and the bamboozled

They defy classification, so that means they are in my classification of tastes... they got the mad skills. click on their picture. They will be added to the right column. Did I mention they provide their entire album for free?

Here is a song for you.

I present to you...
The Tiger Lillies

Gold days are now silver and will only become iron as time passes and rust as it does.

2007-08-15T09:02:00.000-07:00

Despite my topic line, I am in good spirits today. I have been thinking about writing a book. I have started several and yet never completed them. I have always considered myself a poor writer. I know the title of the supposed book: I Want to be superhero...

I have read so many books, some writers are beyond my skill, others baffle me because they suck. That is rare though.

I want to write, I think I understand what I need to write about. Now it is just doing it. Achieving what I want. I would love nothing more then to become a writer, to write dreams for a living would be a great thing indeed.

The question is, who would buy it?

2007-08-13T05:37:00.000-07:00

I have been tagged by Appletini for 10 fascinating random facts about me. This helps because I had no idea what to post about this morning. I think I have done something like this before, but that is okay... I need to write something.

1. I totally dig intelligent shows, like How it's made, Myth Busters, Bullshit, and Modern Marvels.

2. I love intense video games. I really enjoy hardcore games. This does not immediately mean violent (sometimes it is). It just means that the action is hot, heavy and intense as described above. I always find it fun and beyond exciting to watch moan at the mention of video games, then to watch them. They are not the Mario you used to remember. My father is like this, as are many of the middle generation. Most men dig the appeal too. The Hitman series is one such title that almost any guy (some women too maybe) could sink their teeth into. I like to see child like wonder in people when they see new generation gaming.

Example (taken from Gears of War):

You come out of a prison that is all but shattered due to war, only to find your exit is over taken by locust (the enemy). Your hope is to take cover from the intense fire fight that is about to occur, you slam your body up to a ledge blocking on coming fire. Helicopters are over head they are your allies, there is two of them, they are using heavy firing turrets of unknown caliber on the enemy. You can not stare too long, as on your left side you are being flanked by three locust, your cover is no longer helping you. One of the two helicopters takes a direct hit (you may not have seen it) but you hear the pilot screaming... you can not stop what you are doing, the enemy is still pressing you. Take cover at a new location, charge the enemy, don't stand still, as said before that cover you have stood behind has now been compromised and minus the guys flanking you, there is whole bunch more laying down suppressing fire in front of you...

Like I said: This is not Mario brothers
The little dude is not allowed to watch any of these.

3. I love clothing. I enjoy looking nice, I like being a young professional that sticks out. A different era of young professional. I love looking swank, however I am not a very gay ish like dude. I have no problems with masculinity, I do not get pedicures or do my nails. I just get dressed like I am going to the swing clubs of old, when speakeasys were the in thing.

4. I enjoy poker, Texas Hold'em is my favored kinda of card play and I like money. Gambling is rather stupid, but poker is more about skill then luck. That is why the same powerful gamblers are so famous, they make it to the last table almost every year, out of thousands of players.

5. I love having Bailey's Irish cream in my coffee, it is the stuff of heaven. I will usually have it when I go camping (yes I go camping, I live in New England) It is the perfect night cap after a day in the sun, swimming, and eating. A nice large cup of coffee with that inside... mmm does a body good. Just like smoking.

6. I like Old Spice body spray.

7. I love to read, fact check, read the news, find federal census records, I like reading laws and how they are worded (I know I am a dork) my favorite is sexual leering, staring at someone for over 10 seconds while making suggestive "eyes" at another person (cali baby) hahahaha.

8. I enjoy teaching the little dude and make it sound exciting. Imagination and science are one in the same for children, it is us that steals that from them. I bought the bud, an encyclopedia set at a yard sale(updated last in 1988) but for a 6 year old you would have thought I bought him a real monster truck. The point is me and him have been reading about a place, war, or invention, at least every other day before bed. He takes the books to summer camp with him... even though the other little kids think it is not cool. The bud said to me "Learning makes me smart how can that not be cool?" My heart melt. He rocks and I love to teach him with a passion that deserves his attention. "Bud what does 6+?=15?" He smiles "8?" "that is close" "9" Very good little dude.

9. I do not believe in pushing moral codes on other people and via versa.

10. I like chocolate. I love chocolate. I consume chocolate. chocolate gooooood. I have chick behaviors when it comes to the substance.

I will tag a few people later, need to get to work. :D Thanks Appletini.

How is the going? That good?

2007-08-10T07:10:00.000-07:00

I having nothing to post about. I am a rather empty vessel. What should I post about? I really am out of ideas for right now.

2007-08-06T09:05:00.001-07:00

Their PR guy was the shit. He hooked me up with some tunes and a .mov

The cover looks out right bat shit crazy (this MY opinion) like something out of the ether filled back alleys of old style New York. I love that album cover. It is pretty.

I want my readers to atleast visit their site, check out the mad skills this chica and her crew have.

My friend let me sample some of their shit not that long ago and it was delightful cup of wit, sarcasm, and mad skills. Just remember she watches tv to feel better.

1816 The Year Without Summer

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This is an excellent site. It consists of the most amazing postcards. If you are laughing at the thought of postcards not being important, then you are gravely mistaken. Postcards, unlike emails have been around for hundred and hundreds of years. They communicated our histories as well as their general mission of conveying written words... Here are just a few. Check out Postcard Man

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1968, a lot has happened since then...
What? I was not there... all I know was one of the greatest of all time comedies was created.

Even if you saw the remake... see this one. It is/was great.

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This concludes our session for today. I did not feel much like writing. So I thought I would showcase my unusual side just a little more.

I am so going to see this! Yeah I know no one will comment. It is a vid post

2007-08-01T10:02:00.000-07:00

I do not consider people who draw my ire.

2007-07-30T06:54:00.001-07:00

I had plenty to do this week prior, buying a house continues to present me with non stop jobs. Mowing the Law, moving our bedroom around, hooking up a nicer mail box and mail box post (I did not know they needed assembly). Non stopping there, hooking up my little dudes bedroom, changing out old beds with newer versions, Gardening - yes gardening, my lady is very clear on me helping her.
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We had taken the little dude to a party this weekend. This is where the topic of this post comes into play. The kids were great, it was fun. I played catch, assisted in handing out cake, enjoying the company of little people who never tired of anything, everything was fun to them. Their worlds where so complete when they had their juice, water melon, and cheap 50 cent toys. They have it better then I do.
One of the children had to leave soon. He became rather upset and was not listening, yet it seem more due to his mother being unclear with him, not speaking bluntly and clearly then him not wanting to listen. Children like to be loved, they love to be spoken to with eye contact. I saw that the mother was struggling with her emotions, she could not assist her child in a way that was positive.
I did not confront her, I did not even step in when she was yelling or being angry with a 4 year old. She spoke fast and complex for a child of that age. His ears did not understand what she was saying all he knew is she was mad, that was clear to me. He ran from her and laid on the ground crying. I set down the frisbee and walked over to the little guy.

"can you spell your name?" Was the first thing I asked.
He shook his head yes.
"you know spiderman can sign his name too" then I paused and smiled "is that who you are?"
The boy stopped crying "yes, um (meaning i'm) spidaman"
"Does spiderman listen to his momma" The smile not leaving my face.
He nods his head yes.
"you wanna see who can get to momma first" She was over by the table huffing and puffing.
He nodded happily and immediately we set off, I let him win of course.
Soon as he reached her, she looked at me and her eyes met mine and I could tell her anger was now directed at me.
"you know you are being a bit pushy" she said to me, then began yelling at her boy even though he came to her with a little encouragement, because going to her was a mistake or so that is what the boy learned.
In my thoughts, but not on my face... I knew that she would pay for her bad parenting with guilt and worry, not mention the rage... the self loathing of her all mistakes, her own issues directed at her son, the level of incompetence she had as a parent. This is not a bias account. She was cruel.

WHAT A BITCH.

My birthday... What a fucking bummer... Many more fun facts inside.

2007-07-23T06:07:00.000-07:00

Is getting older suppose to suck, when does that switch happen? It was on the 17th and instead of being happy, I was angry... angry for things I am not willing to talk about, other then the emotion itself. When I was a kid I thought adults had it all figured out, I mean it was sold to me that way. Now that I am here... shit.

So yeah I have been bummed on the 17th and after. I withdrew not just from my blog, but my lady, little dude, friends and family.... not nice I know.I am fine now. I had to balance the issues that raged on within my head and I have come out a better person... Just needed to balance my own issues and I did.
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Random Useless News:
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I bought The Darkness
I am going to be doing another radio show this week.
I setup my living room more (we are unpacked, but not fully arranged- we are almost there)
Going to a birthing education class after work tonight.
Forced a stupid post that I deleted... I do not like writing a post out of a illogical feeling of obligation.
Have friends over Saturday evening. It was fun.
I watched Smokin' Aces - It was a very different movie. That is coming from me, trust me that is saying something.
Did some images searches on Google that I am going to share with you now.

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I have yet to see this film. I want to see this film. I believe it will be good. It has content that we all know the Demon23 loves. What more could I ask for?

Tom Waits(about smoking): The beauty of quitting is, now that I've quit, I can have one, 'cause I've quit.

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I am adding a new link on the right side of my blog. It is website that I really enjoy looking at it, the art is certainly up my alley. It is swathy... what does swathy mean? It is not a real word or atleast I do not believe it is.

Swathy: Dark in medium, smoke, colors are bland but yet beautiful, simplicity of blotches and a darkness just under service that serves the content. It could almost be a food for the eyes... the way it hangs on to your brain...

Without further delay
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Paivi Hintsanen Dig.Art

Click on this image and the ones after it for an enlarged view.

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I am taking another break.

2007-07-17T12:54:00.000-07:00

I will be back someday... maybe.

God blocked my phone # and Satan put me on speed dial

2007-07-16T07:21:00.000-07:00

I have always been at odds with religion. I never fully accepted any one belief. Never cared to, besides when I was a teenager. That is when I felt a war was needed against religion, how dare people believe what they want to. I have grown up since then.

I am not agnostic... well a little bit. I have always been more of deist. Deism is what I best can use to explain my feelings toward a belief in a higher power, my agnostic self is centered that I am not sure of any of "it".

Religion: A set of beliefs concerning the cause, nature, and purpose of the universe, esp. when considered as the creation of a superhuman agency or agencies, usually involving devotional and ritual observances, and often containing a moral code governing the conduct of human affairs.

I find that religion is not cut and dry. Muslims, Christians (many differ look at how it branches out), Pagans, Buddhists, etc.

What is one groups fact, is another's heresy. Each one yelling above the other "we got the message"
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What I would like to see from religious people.

Toleration of non-believers.
Extremist behavior makes people not want to listen to you.
Gays do not believe they are bad for being gay, holding signs that says they are will not make a difference. Why push for other people to have to live by your moral laws?

I.E What if I had you live by my moral laws which include going to church is a sin? You would not like it much, I am sure. Making laws to govern actions that are not your own and hurt no one, is unconstitutional

If something is not the way you want it, then tolerate it. This does not mean you like it, accept it nor have to be around it in your own home, property, etc. In public you will have to deal with two gay men kissing... just don't get turned on <---- that is a sin.
Your religion is not a science and should not be taught in science class.

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Non believers

Respect religion as you would the elderly, they have served their time.
Why does it matter if they do not believe the same as you.
Little Timmy can bring in the bible for free reading. Sarah can bring in the Quran. Matthew can bring in the Satan Bible.
Christians do not have to accept homosexuals, behaviors they consider sins, etc. All they have to do is tolerate. Do not try to convince them.
Why is it more acceptable to try convince religious people that their religion is not "good" but it is not acceptable for them to come our doors and bring their religion.
Come on atheists! Just because our dollar says "In god we trust" does not mean we bend over for god... it does not mean anything unless you put meaning in it, which seems atheists plan.
Extremists makes people not want to listen to you.

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In the end, directed at both groups

get along.
Stay out of each others business
Practice what you preach (hypocrites look silly)
What you find ill moral is not the same as everyone else... deal.

Take care.
Demon23

What the hell?

2007-07-13T07:51:00.001-07:00

Recent: I could not fix my blog... I backed up what I could which was almost everything, thankfully. I tried several rough templates and found something similar to Kitten's setup... I have modified the hell out of my own though. I like my color scheme, I also changed the boarder sizes, and removed several widgets (that was easy) that I had no use for. I am now restoring most of my material... I was rather pissed earlier... I think I was seething. I mean it is like a car starting... it is normality, when normality is not present... no one is a happy pisser. I can not figure out what the hell happened to my blog. Friday the 13th is just a myth? hmmmm. It is but still I am going to blame it (Friday the 13th) anyways.

Earlier:
I am ready to put my fist through the screen. I have not fucked with my template and yet it is dead! I need to fix this... it will take me some time. I can not find my original template.

I am looking through the glass and can see myself on the otherside.

2007-07-11T06:32:00.000-07:00

Me and Lady (my girlfriend) have been together for some time. Yet never have I experienced this any one person with what I experienced with her a few weeks ago.

She was sleeping in bed. I was playing video games. It was late at night, probably around 2:00 am. I slipped into bed, thinking myself none the wiser. I laid down next to her and was about to fall asleep, when I get hit in the arm by her and she sits right up in bed.

"Honey what are you doing!" Me
"Demon, where is it!?" Her
"Where is what?" Me "why are you hitting me?"
"where did you put it!?" Her
"uhhh put what" I am groggy and not with it.
"My vagina" Her
I could not begin to understand what she just asked me and almost started cracking up right there.
"Did you check under the couch?" Me
"No!" She laid back down and did not say another word.
I could not fall asleep for a while, trying to figure out what the hell that was all about. She had no memory of it the next morning. Still that is some funny shit.

This thing.

2007-07-09T11:57:00.000-07:00

I stole this from Nicole.

Rules:
1. Each player lists 8 facts/habits about themselves.
2. The rules of the game are posted at the beginning before those facts/habits are listed.
3. At the end of the post, the player then tags 8 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know that they have been tagged and asking them to read your blog.

I have a disdain for religion, but do not question its place in our society. I usually tell people what they believe is fine. However this does not apply to the strangers that knock on my door asking about god (they stepped into my domain). "he does not live here, and he owes me 25.50 for pizza and beer. Now remove your holy ass off my door step... thanks"
I love clothing... I dig fashion. However this does not include genital waxing (women why do you do this!? ) or anal bleaching... WTF is up with that? I like looking good, but I am not a cat who can shove his ass in strangers faces and get away it... so why does it matter if my junk is hairless? Who the fuck would know, besides your lover? If they are already your lover then why would you need the treatment done in the first place? creepy. yep. Bat shit crazy.
I am always trying to push my conscience to let me know when to shut up... I have gotten myself into such trouble with my mouth. The alarm does not go off until after I said something I shouldn't.
I dislike PC behavior. I consider it dis genuine. I dislike fascists (politicians)
I do not believe in speaking about things I do not know much about. I believe in being educated on a subject before I open mouth.
I always consider myself respectful... until I get grumpy, uhh then not so much.
I do not have a license. Need to get one, strongly dislike cars... believe in public transportation. However still need one due to obligation.
I love movies, music, art, books, history. I feel that all of the communication for our times is measured within our production of these items. It is interesting to see. I am artsy fartsy no?

Kitten, Carrie, Kiley, and who ever else that wants to take it.

Hey

2007-07-09T07:08:00.000-07:00

I am back. However very busy. Don't have the internet at home till the 20th. I am work catching up on all the stuff that has built for two weeks (at work)

I am a home owner now... I feel complete... in that aspect.

I still have a job. My continued employment looks good.

Thank you all for being supportive and kind. I would have replied to each one of you on the previous post, just too busy.

I will post a better post soon. I will make my rounds to your blogs later today or tomorrow. Take care. Thanks for all the support. :D

Demon23

I could be...

2007-06-21T06:17:00.001-07:00

Laid off
Hours cut
Moving
Taking my two weeks vacation for the move
expecting a baby this late summer/early fall
Buying a house.

My head is spinning. My brain is burning. I fight with my lady most of the time now. Too many changes, too fast. Going past the sound barrier, can't slow down... push forward or fall backwards. Stand strong ... This is your life.
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This maybe last post for a while. I am not leaving, I am just moving and getting things in order. I will be back in the next week or two.

2007-06-19T11:37:00.000-07:00

Nicole showed me the whitest kids and I have to say... they are funny

2007-06-19T07:45:00.000-07:00

I always wondered what bush would look like when he finally claims victory? I think this artist made that leap to give us a view.

Rosie has always scared me, not to due with the fact that she is lesbian. I do not care. It is not even because she is liberal (no I am not a conservative) however I do put both groups in the same group. They suck. Rosie is plan'o scary.

You can find more pics here.

Yes we all know he is a zombie... stupid fox news reporting the same old thing.

This video made me die laughing. It is bad. Very bad.

Lame? Why do I take lame tests? because my job bores me? maybe

2007-06-13T09:02:00.000-07:00

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others.
Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel.
You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations.
A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict.

You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

You are The Magician

Skill, wisdom, adaptation. Craft, cunning, depending on dignity.

Eleoquent and charismatic both verbally and in writing,
you are clever, witty, inventive and persuasive.

The Magician is the male power of creation, creation by willpower and desire. In that ancient sense, it is the ability to make things so just by speaking them aloud. Reflecting this is the fact that the Magician is represented by Mercury. He represents the gift of tongues, a smooth talker, a salesman. Also clever with the slight of hand and a medicine man - either a real doctor or someone trying to sell you snake oil.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Look all the red ones, blue ones, and the little green ones too.

2007-06-12T07:02:00.000-07:00

Radio Show
Duration: 29:22

Problems via each person, including myself and my own personal issues.

Then the issues that surround our society and the people comprise it
How people use their personal issues as a standpoint for political beliefs, actions against others, and control over people.

My respect or lack there of, when people make blanket comments without nothing to back it up.

I let something personal about myself slip.

CafePress! This looks interesting.

2007-06-11T06:26:00.000-07:00

I never thought of this before chatting with Carrie. It is called CaféPress. It looks good. I am not sure about it, I mean I have always felt creative but who the hell would want to purchase my shit? probably not many. I have always thought about creating my own logo for my blog. However I am far too busy being lazy.
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My radio show is all about being free.
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My WTF series has not taken off, even though I have several projects in motion on it. Just haven't posted any. Due to the monumental failure of the first (in my eyes)
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I have started several stories and novel ideas in the last year, but have not completed any of them. I have not taken my creepy artwork any further.
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I start things and do not complete them.
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I am kinda bummed now and it is my own fault. Shit.
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Do you guys have any ideas?

I have done it!

2007-06-07T09:29:00.001-07:00

Radio Show
Duration: around 25 minutes.

Several bullets look cool on a blog post.

2007-06-06T05:07:00.000-07:00

I could not find my USB cable all weekend. It did not matter really, due to the fact that my cable modem died on me. I still would have been late in uploading the sound bite, so yeah I broke my promise even if nothing else went wrong. My bad.

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I can not find that stupid cable anywhere. I am beginning to be believe I am cursed. However there is a silver lining to all of this. My co-worker who lives down the street from me has an mp3 player just like my own. She will be allowing me to use your gear for my own device. Sweet.

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Speaking of my radio show - I would like to offer all of you a radio show question. You can ask me anything you want and I will answer it during my radio show, plus post my original show. So please hit me up. Ask me what my thoughts are on a topic (you may not get much back in return) I will mention your blog and where to find to it. During the radio show. Getting interactive.

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I will not be posting another promise for a while, I have denounced the word promise from my usage. Sorry for not following through and I hope I can make it up to all of you.

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check it out.

2007-05-31T07:25:00.000-07:00

You Are 85% Creative

You are an incredibly creative person. For you, there are no bounds or limits to your creativity.
Your next creation could be something very great... Or at least very cool!

How Creative Are You?

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I was listening to a song called Wooden Pint earlier... google it (not sure if you will come up with anything, still try) got it off my internet radio station.
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I have not forgotten my WTF series (less cool) or The Cheap Ass Radio show (more cool)

I will do a radio show sometime soon. I have some ideas for one. Trust me. It will lack quality. When does it not? :D I am kidding, actually my radio show should be given an award in the form of cash. I am still waiting for a powerful corporation to realize my edgy potential and how much advertising that would bring.
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Mid June... The Darkness Will Spread....

2007-05-30T09:28:00.000-07:00

Yes I am THAT big of a geek... but why the fuck not?

Art. What? Art. Art is Art.

2007-05-29T07:54:00.000-07:00

I am listening to some Irish Punk/folk. The Pogue. Very good shit, yep. If you do not agree, well ummm... yeah. I have reviewed clinical materials, while chatting it up with Carrie. I am enjoying my coffee, love the coffee... as there should be a bible committed to it.

If I do not ingest this medicine, the transformation process consumes me and I become something else, call it addiction, but I don't kill for it, nor neglect my bills for it, yet the monster within does speak addiction, no ?Speaking of horrible things. I always enjoyed this book as a younger male growing up in a world that seemed to be composed of lies as I grew older. No magic, but plenty of disappointment, regret, emotional trauma, self-hate, lack of care over fellow human beings... addiction, and card debt. So now that I said all of these happy things. Yet I believe these are tests of principles. anyways I digress. Here ya go. Click on the picture. It is a great read. That is not really true. However I read this when I was around ten or so.

Here is where I leave you with images that I find interesting.

I thought this would be cool, because I have brain tumors.

2007-05-25T06:38:00.000-07:00

Update - yep. I am not "pure" watch out people.

You Are 44% Pure

You're not so innocent... in fact, you're quite unpure.
You have seen and experienced a lot. And you're no worse for the wear!

The 100 Question Purity Test

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I was taking a walk down memory lane and found myself thinking... what happened to all the shows I grew up with? They all went away. So I brought back their introductions or other people did and now I am just piggy backing on their hard work. I find myself actually laughing at some of these and genuinely missing others. 80's themes were rather bad weren't they?

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Dude Thundercats!

I wonder if this guy gets laid much?

Fraggle Rock

Hello

2007-05-23T07:57:00.000-07:00

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I have added a new artist to left, his name is Chris Black *adds another cd to my list, that I do not have the money to buy* If you dig Tom Waits and melancholy tunes then this guy is up that alley. I sent him email requesting his approval of me linking to him and all that jazz. He was happy to give me the green light even after I appeared like a crazy fan. So he rocks.
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Old Video/Repost - still watch it. It is good.

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I have been writing lately, if you want to read it, ask... and provide your email, I will hook you up. -be prepared to be disappointed- Mind you it is very graphic, cruel and kinda depressing and that is just the grammar, the content is worse.
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Accidentally deleted my driver for my flash stick... I just need to restart my work computer and it will be fine... but I am lazy. Later I will have a pic up... mind you I am not responsible if you get motion sickness. I am gods gift to the blind and lepers.

Working. Work. what? Work.

2007-05-21T06:05:00.001-07:00

I am one, very busy and completely swamped person.
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Completion of all things below by the end of the day.

Clinical Filing (this is going to take a while)
Clinical Scanning (pesky contracts, state verification of services, and so on)
Review of Clinical Forms via the computer (rapists? Victims? Drunks? Mental health issues)
Meeting W/Clinical Director in re: clinical forms and issues, and corresponding action that I have taken (heads up)
Writing two? (maybe more) letters to consultants who have not properly filled out forms (via computer) in mass. So I must crush them... all joke aside, I hate telling people that they are liability. Then the man (clinical director) will sign them as if he wrote them.
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I had nothing to write about, so I wrote about my job. I have seen other people do it, so for today I wanted to be a conformist. Just today... don't get your hopes up... it will happen again long time down the road from now.

Hey I have to edited this, because I think it looks lame.

2007-05-16T10:12:00.000-07:00

Update 5/17/07 - Work In progress. Click on it. yes it is creepy.End of Update. listen to my radio show below... please :-)
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My Cheap Ass Radio Show
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Duration: 23 minutes
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I talk about the following:

Blogmad.net
Endy
Blue Eyes
My feelings toward them and then I forget what I am talking about. This is always a reoccurring theme. I admit I am an ass or rather peevish.
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My own self inflated ego and admit that I am an attention whore. I would be an attention prostitute but in order for that title to pass I need to make money doing this.
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Blogs, political blogs, and my dislike for them. Not understanding either side of the fence, finding that the issues surrounding our government and the people that comprise it do not really care about us, only themselves.
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My feelings on: The war on drugs, Gun Control, Laws, Decency, and Fascist behavior
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Understand that none of this maybe in order. I do not stay on topic and at best my speech and topics are not coherent. Yet please grab a cup of coffee and some headphones, put your feet up and chill.

I am drinking coffee.

2007-05-15T17:20:00.000-07:00

I hate windows xp and windows media player... fuck you. I can't transfer my recorded file from my mp3 player to the hard drive of my home computer. Piece of shit.

If you can not tell, I have been trying to do this for the last hour. I understand computers and software without too much trouble, but this fucking thing won't work, it does not have read only or anything of such, in fact that is disabled and I can not even click on it - a mild observation compared to the bullshit I have had to deal with, god damn it is like I am the only guy that says the word "about" at an all Canadian mafia meeting.

All the more to never mind and upload it tomorrow morning. Take care everyone.

Click on it. Work in PROGRESS

2007-05-15T13:32:00.000-07:00

Demon is an ass.

2007-05-15T04:19:00.000-07:00

I deleted my blog off blogmad.net

This was not well taken by people within the shoutbox. Last night I was accused of being a dick because I did not want to change my auto-play feature on my music. I did change it. Now you have to select a song for it to play. This morning when I went to actually go through the steps to turn off my blog and probably keep my account active for when or if I return. However, I was met with more opposition. People really do not like it when you don't bow to conformity. My statement was not rude this morning. I said hello to the moderator and told her what I was doing... taking down my blog. I was called petulant.

pet·u·lant
adj.

Unreasonably irritable or ill-tempered; peevish.
Contemptuous in speech or behavior.

Why? Did I piss on some one? belittled them or was rude? Nope I was not. Yet people really do not like it when you make any kind of waves, especially for a group that the person(s) in question belong to. I decided that this means I needed to terminate my account as I won't be returning.

However that is not the only point... I got nothing out of blogmad.net... besides meeting Aria and Carrie, so it was worth the experience.

It was fun while it lasted at poor blogmad, as it has succumbed to little or no surfing and the few people that do go through that many site obviously could get irritated with my auto-play music due to seeing my blog 47 times in under an hour. Now they never need worry.

Rectum shaped faces... its worse when they open their mouths

2007-05-14T12:54:00.000-07:00

Update: I lied I decided to not post a radio show tonight... I tried but could not think about what to talk about. I am listening to Tom Waits - Underground.

I love working. I really do. It gives me strength, even if others do not notice. It gives me balance.
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When I hear music... it makes me feel empowered, even if it is dark...
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I have some concepts completed for my next WTF episode. Mind you it will be better, then the last. It will be a pope on acid kind-of-experience. Yay for popes on acid, or popes on Popsicles either or.

My next radio show will be later tonight, when the little dude/best bud is in bed.
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Yeah nothing note worthy... just letting ya know I am not dead... even if I was I am sure I could still use a computer, just don't know if I could get a good connection. It took Jesus 3 days to re-spawn, that is a rather bad connection... don't ya think?

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Monkey Man is the more then just a man, he is a monkey that is also a man.

2007-05-11T05:23:00.000-07:00

I might be MIA for a little while (today, Monday, maybe Tuesday - during the day, at night I may be on). I have much work to complete. I kinda pissed my days away without fear, but now it is crunch time. My up and coming plans is to make more kick ass and dynamic WTF episodes (the last one blew so bad that a blind person hated it), more radio shows... and who knows some other art work, maybe.
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My lady is graduating from her college this weekend.
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I am broke on pay day (bills 1,200 dollars worth in the course of 2 weeks) and then additional 400 - 500 on the 3rd week. Yep. Fucking sucks. My lady is staring her new job Monday and it could not have started at a better time. Hate being broke. Good kinda broke... minimum debt, and bills paid.
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Well rock on.
Demon23

Ed

2007-05-10T04:16:00.000-07:00

Dear Demon,

Hamell is currently hard at work staging his one man show The Terrorism Of Everyday Life but we make sure he hears about the "pertinent" things, a category you fall into. He said to feel free to use anything you want, "spread the word" and if you make a million buy him a car.

Good luck and thanks for your interest in Hamell On Trial.

Best, Emily @ Such-A-Punch Media

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Sent: Wednesday, May 09, 2007 10:50 AM

Subject: Response from www.hamellontrial.com

realname: Demon
email: JRDemon23@hotmail.com
Message: Holy shit... you made me spit my coffee out when I heard the song heat. You are one funny, intelligent, clever fucking bastard. You even let us listen to whole freak'in songs (how did you do that, record labels are such pieces of shit for the most part - money grubbing whores). If it was not for music.com/Pandora I would never have heard you. Fuck radio, internet radio man... no FCC keeping me from hearing you. I will be more then shocked if you reply, no band has yet to do this that I know of. May I host the songs you have listed? My blog does not have THAT much traffic and I will link back to this site and give you credit and an up and running logo that does above mentioned link back. Do yo have a logo I can use or do you just want me to make one. So dude how about it? Please and all that shit. If ya don't reply back, I will go ahead and link you (above mentioned plan) and then you can sue me or reply and tell me fuck no and that is cool too. Hell I will give you the 10 cents in my pocket. http://www.Vile2cents.blogspot.com You ever going to come and play in maine?
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Damn right I will buy him a car if I get a million dollars. I know he did not reply, and some one else did, but that is still pretty freak'in cool. Yeah I can spread the word. I am such a fan of this dude within one day. He got some mad skill. You can find this dudes music all over my blog. When you come to my blog one of his songs start playing right off the bat. If you do not like him, fill out your personal information, telephone number and I will make sure something is done for you. *thinks about homosexual dominator or S&M dating websites* So yeah. Have a good day and all.

Listen to Values!

2007-05-09T08:04:00.000-07:00

This guy is kick ass. Ed Hamell man... I put his link on my blog. Look for it. Left hand, top corner.
Here is another link, it is the newest album. When I get the cash I am buying his album. Listen to values... listen, and listen again and again! It's #7 on the album. Just click. He even lets you listen to tons of full songs for free... Don't piss on the deal and sign up. Remember Ann Coulter has a stinky...
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Update

This is the What The Fuck? series. It will get better over time and use more intelligent art work and what not, but I kept waiting to long to do it. So I grabbed the shitty MSpaint brush bullshit. Gimp was my first choice, but I am at work, aren't I?

So here you are. Now that I did one, I will want to do more and make them better. Please do not consider my artistic skill bullshit, well it is, but that is not why this is. I will commit more time and better software for coming episodes.

I would not consider this a comic strip or a political cartoon series. I would consider it more of a waste of time. Similar to a priest visiting anything but the boy scouts. Complete waste of time.

CLICK ON THE PIC TO SEE IT BETTER.

No the guy does not need two hands... wow this really does suck... but I am going to keep doing it.

Shut up, the topic line was not emo.

2007-05-08T10:53:00.000-07:00

I am do for a smoke soon. I am drinking another cup of coffee. I see myself burning out my blood stream, nervous system, lungs, brain, and moral and ethical ability to care for others needs. However that day has not come yet... until it does, I will be - Demon and fine.
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Kitten I am sorry you have been unable to listen to my Cheap Ass Radio show, however the noise pollution I create, kills dolphins. So maybe it is a good thing. If I could, I would create an identity drop box and use my ninja agents to set headphones in it. You would have a key delivered by two highly trained Ex-CIA agents that would allow you to open your drop box and retrieve said item.
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Remember when you can to check out my music station. It good music. Or so I think so.
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I will do another radio show soon. Carrie - I will post the duration time of the show, I will also continue to state whatever I cover in my radio show.
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People seem kinda blue today (as have I)... so I thought these pictures would make people smile, as they do make me smile.

I lied.

2007-05-07T07:19:00.000-07:00

I was going to do another radio thing, but not right now. I need more privacy to commit myself.

I have some questions -

What would you the listeners like to hear? Do you have any questions, things you want me to address?

I really would love some input, it would help keep me on track.

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I removed Twitter.com, because it no longer displayed correctly (the way I wish). In the future I may put it back.
Music.com/Pandora I believe this is the best system for finding music. It really does work most of the time. If you click on Pandora it will have my music on it. I suggest making your own Free account. The two act as one. Go to music.com first.

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I need more coffee and commit to work. Have a pleasant day. I know I will.

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I completed my Cheap Ass Radio show.

- Gender (differences, equal, but different)
- Decisions
- Loving the light, by knowing the bad
- people who let their mental ilnness overcome
- Flirting
- women/me flirting with them
- how guys do not like me
- Parenting - gender identification

None of this is in order. Enjoy.

Have you ever seen the bunnies... trust me, you would know if you have.

2007-05-04T08:51:00.000-07:00

This is the 2nd installment or maybe it is the 3rd. The link I provide has the option to play the older episodes. If you ever believed that bunnies are cute, then you gravely mistaken... I speak of true bunny untold power... all of the episodes can be found here.

I am going to ask the creator if I can have a direct link, hosting through him.

The episodes of pure bunny power are rated M for mature, for uhh, excessive violence.

Anyways watch the damn bunny... please.

My voice...

2007-05-03T10:31:00.000-07:00

I cover this in my Cheap Ass Radio Show

Note: you do not have to download anything, you do not have to do anything besides click on the link and prepared to be amazed.

My plans (sorta)
My Feelings toward the bullshit (life)
My Feelings on People Judging me
Some questions for you the listeners.
A lot of rambling, vulgarity and disrespect.

Emotional... Emotions... then just motion.

2007-05-02T06:48:00.000-07:00

I watched a co-worker cry yesterday. I listened to her as she did this, she was very angry and hurt by other department heads actions taken against her. I understand her pain, but said very little.

She is older then myself, by 30 years or less. I felt only mildly awkward. She felt better after releasing all of her problems. I remained unhurt in her dumping the toxic pool of problems, my mind was on cloud nine as it this morning.

I have seen so much in only 24 years of life. It is rather amazing, as I see more and more about emotions and the human condition then I ever thought would be possible.

I have come to understand people decide most of their own misery, myself included. We make decisions that we do not acknowledge at a later date that obviously put us in the boat that we are in.

Therapists, Doctors, Presidents, Social Workers, Humans. None of us seem to want to be held accountable. Yet the sickness, the mental illness that I speak of is when we try to lie to ourselves and commit similar decisions that lead us down a path that we should not have started. Yet turning around means admitting that it was mistakes of the individual, so we continue the lie-to-ourselves and continue down the path that will lead to so many worse things then death.

Demon Quote: I sleep like I never woke, and when my eyes do open, they remain wide so that I may see all that I can.

I found this in the blog world... and stole it.

2007-05-01T05:51:00.000-07:00

I found this on Kitten's blog

Your Personality Profile

You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant.
Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle.
You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs.

For you, comfort and calm are very important.
You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection.
You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

Yep stole another test from the mighty and all knowing kitten. I have been planning on making another video. I should link the sidebar with what I previously have created. I forgot the camera at home today.

Speaking of making a video - I have forgotten how many websites that host my material.
I have to keep a list of all the sites I have going, accounts and forums. Good god, I have too many.

I also want more bells and whistles on my blog site. Not that many people can begin to notice how much goodies I have crammed on to this blog... Aria uses my little stupid chat box. Thank you Aria, I have yet to be on when you are, but love a good chat

By good Chat I mean the following is not allowed.
no bots,
no teenager wanting cybersex
No 12 people stating - a/s/l) <---- because that shit is stupid.

No "what is your name?"

Aria is a doll though and the rest of you are too, minus the guys... the guys are dudes and they can be all kick ass and shit, but they can't be dolls... well they could be dolls if they reside in West Hollywood. (voice in my head: So homosexuals reside in one location? My answer: Yes. I purely relate all my opinions on pure 100% Demon fact. Just ask me and I will tell you. Have fun and enjoy the day. It is partly sunny here, I love the sun. good shit.

Update

I told kitten to tell me what to write about. She did. She asked me to write about my moving out of my home and getting my own place.

Well first, I did not live at home when I moved into my apartment. I lived in a group home for troubled teens. Me and my father got into arguments and had lots of problems. Minus a few bumps in between... I moved into a group home. I was there 16 - 18, never attended college and barely graduated high school.

I did not have a decent job lined up, when it was time for me to move and I remained rather poor and impoverished for the first year on my own. When my depression hit full heights due to my own decisions, I decided that either I must shoot myself or get a job. After careful planning I decided that it was time to start working.

I got odd jobs that were beyond disgusting and horrible pay. I worked everything from retail, construction, physical laborer (hauling brush, cleaning barns that were infested with dead rats, bailing hay, blue berry raking, etc)

I worked as a brick tender for a year, and finally the boss asked me to join his staff within the offices... I have been here since. been here for over three years.

My first apartment was a hell hole... my land lord/slum lord was a coke head.

I have since moved around in that time, I live in a loft apartment now and have a very cushy life, with good pay, more balanced outlook and appreciation for the past that I have had.

My first apartment kitten? Well it was more of an experience that changed me in ways I can not begin to list. It made me stronger, unbreakable (when you are starving- it adds strength), I have never backed down since then. I have to use a line from a Johnny Cash song - You have gravel in your gut and spit in your eye.

This was probably what you were not intending for a post. Yet it is the truth. :D

Something to always keep in mind.

2007-04-30T05:58:00.001-07:00

A father passing by his son's bedroom was astonished to see that his bed was nicely made and everything was picked up. Then he saw an envelope, propped up prominently on the pillow that was addressed to "Dad." With the worst premonition he opened the envelope with trembling hands and read the letter.

Dear Dad:

It is with great regret and sorrow that I'm writing you. I had to elope with my new girlfriend because I wanted to avoid a scene with mom and you. I have been finding real passion with Stacy and she is so nice. But I knew you would not approve of her because of all her piercing, tattoos, tight motorcycle clothes and the fact that she is much older than I am. But it's not only the passion...Dad she's pregnant. Stacy said that we will be very happy. She owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of firewood for the whole winter. We share a dream of having many more children.
>Stacy has opened my eyes to the fact that marijuana doesn't really hurt anyone. We'll be growing it for ourselves and trading it with the other people that live nearby for cocaine and ecstasy. In the meantime we will pray that science will find a cure for AIDS so Stacy can get better. She deserves it. Don't worry Dad. I'm 15 and I know how to take care of myself.

Someday I'm sure that we will be back to visit so that you can get to know your grandchildren.

Love, Your Son John

PS. Dad, none of the above is true. I'm over at Tommy's house. I just wanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than the report card that's in my center desk drawer.

I love you. Call me when it's safe to come home.

Well I ate some chinese food yesterday.

2007-04-27T06:27:00.000-07:00

I have been playing Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion. It is a game of vast proportions. I understand that my readers may find no interest in mentioning of games. However this is not a game that most people have ever played and or even close to what they know about games.

Let me explain.

Then please comment. Tell me what you think. Try it out if you have a really nice PC, XBOX 360, or a PS 3. It is worth its weight in gold. This is the entire map - magnify the map to see how much there is. I kid you not, this is a very very very big game.

Now on to character ( you make your own) yes everything down to how their jaw looks to what kinda of hair color, if their face is thin or thick, eye color, etc. Please click on this link. click on all of them. I mean you really will be impressed. Including skill sets, abilities, etc.

You can do anything... or very close to it. It is offline, you do not play anyone that is an actual human player, but instead there is over several thousand npc characters that rule cities and or bad guys, etc.

That means if you do not want to do anything besides pick seeds from plants you can. I am not kidding. what you want to be a thief... well you have to find people to buy stolen goods, most merchants don't trade in hot goods. Powerful magic users? You need to get recommendations for city guilds in order to get into the capital mages guild. What you want to be mercenary for hire? No problem. What you want to be a merchant here is a list of people who can help you. What you want to be evil. You want to be a vampire? so on and on and on.
This is just one city - Anvil, it is on the coast. click on it to see the entire size.

Finally I will mention weather, time, morning and night are all in this game.
Please click on the images.

Now that we have proven that I am super geek, with super geek powers... It is off to work for me. Later this evening I will stop on by everyones blog for a quick hello. I understand if no gives a shit about this post... but it is a very fun game and I do enjoy it. Yep... super geek, me.

I have played well over a hundred hours... now mind you. That is almost a year of owning this game. I have never even beaten the games main quest line... there is just THAT much to do. Imagine a movie being that intense. I got my money's worth.

I am going to do something...

2007-04-24T05:41:00.000-07:00

I have not found anything of interest to blog about. My comments have gone down as has my readers.

Hmmm I was going to post some quick sketches I have done, but it was taking too long, so I scrapped the idea. I do have work to do... even though my work is like stapling my nuts to the floor then having a body builder punch me in the face repeatedly... did I mention I love my job.

I am soo not in a good mood. If you needed that pointed out, there it is... I am going to have a smoke and some more coffee.

Listening to: MSI - Stupid MF
Thinking about: How I want to be God.
Angry at: People who believe themselves to be superior then I (we all know I am more superior then them)

I am craving another smoke and a cup of hot Jo.

2007-04-23T06:08:00.000-07:00

So what has been happening in the blog world? I have been very busy and or out of the touch with the world. I went to a wedding, the bride and groom being our friends.

Got my little dude (son) to dance on the floor... ladies I can not dance, but that will not stop me from dancing. I am that guy. So was my little bud...

I have had one great weekend, played video games, went to the park, the thing above (wedding) and had a few drinks and listen to good music.

Yes, Yes, Yes! Got some shit done around the house/apartment (we rent, but it big! Size does matter) Now I have some text book reading to do tonight and some scanning and filing (the most two tedious of my job requirements, hence putting it off... for almost ever) I have plenty to keep me busy.

Hope everyone had as much fun as I did... and if you didn't then you need to be neutured immediately.

<----- Oldie but goodie... still get a kick out of this pic.

Yep.... She will be born later this year.

2007-04-18T10:39:00.000-07:00

I Took this test...

2007-04-18T07:07:00.000-07:00

got this test off of mayren

Take the quiz at dicepool.com

You are a four-sided die, a d4. Otherwise known as a tetrahedron, a "Caltrop", or (to a lesser degree) "Ol' Pointy". This crap bores you, so I'll get to the point. Others tend to see you as petty, conniving, manipulative, argumentative, defensive, greedy, and needlessly antagonistic. You see yourself as focused, effective, efficient, influencing, shrewd, tactical, and direct. Both points of view are in fact correct. You always know the best way to get things done, a fact that never wins sympathy with others. Whenever you manage to gain control of a situation, your solutions are swift and brutal. Unfortunately everyone else is convinced that granting you such power is, "a bad thing" and often conspire to keep it out of your hands. Such short-sighted fools!

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News of The Weird

Former pastor and Southern Baptist leader Lonnie Latham, who had for years prominently preached against homosexuality, was arrested outside a hotel in Oklahoma City in 2006 and charged with soliciting a lewd encounter with a man. But rather than tearfully apologize and enter rehab, Latham demanded a trial to proclaim his constitutional right to engage in consensual sex with an adult male, and in March 2007, he was acquitted.

The Department of Homeland Security's inspector general revealed in March that, although 52 teams are at work tracking down foreigners who remain in the country even after being ordered out, the agency still has a backlog of 620,000 of these fugitive aliens. (However, the inspector general also admitted that there are not enough cells to detain that many fugitives, anyway.) [Houston Chronicle, 3-26-07]

In February, after a three-month court battle, Indian national Mohammed Yousuf Mullawala, 28, was ordered deported for submitting false documents to authorities after his visa expired. He originally attracted attention at a truck-driving school in Smithfield, R.I., where he was allegedly curious about buying dangerous chemicals. Also, while seemingly intent on learning to drive a big rig, he was reportedly uninterested in learning how to back one up. [Providence Journal, 2-14-07]

Chuck is a good guy and all the above stuff he indexed and hosted.

The things you do not normally read about. That could be a good thing, no?

Gabbly Chat and other stuff...

2007-04-17T04:26:00.000-07:00

I put a rather retarded chat feature on my blog. Just a bell and whistle I probably could have done without. I thought, hey I could have a cup of coffee and probably chat it up with some of the mighty bloggers that frequent my blog before they lose their mind to stale blogger boredom (due to my blog) and lose it instead to my constant rambling.

Kitten, Laura, Can Man, Chuckie and his fear over the oatmeal box, choo choo, and so many more... could stay in contact a little easier anytime my site was frequented.

Instead I got bots and crab people.
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In other unimportant news, I have started working harder and harder at work, besides yesterday. I have found myself happier then I have been, me and my lady are talking to the bank about buying a house in my home state around the place of business that I am employed.

We are expecting a baby this fall... we find out the gender tomorrow. I am more then excited.
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More shameless plugging of one of my fav games... Gears of War. I demand you to watch these videos

There is no reason for not posting, other then I did not want to.

2007-04-15T10:09:00.000-07:00

Here is a very unflattering test that I got off of Carrie's blog. Are these tests just for chicks or something? Why am I miss piggy, WTF?

You May Be a Bit Histrionic...

Dramatic and over the top, you crave attention.
And you'll do anything it takes to get noticed.
You love to be seductive, even when it's inappropriate.
If you're ignored, you're easily hurt ... and act out even more!

What Personality Disorder Are You?

White Kids love hip hop! This title has nothing to do with anything

2007-04-11T03:56:00.000-07:00

I added more music! Listen to my music! please...

I need to alter a few pieces of my blog around, add some more stuff. I have been very, and I do mean very busy.

Busy doing the following:

Getting myself in the dog house via comments

Girl Friend saying "what the hell are you doing getting on the comp this early..." My reply is great "Well if I need to see as much anal pumping action porn in a 24 hour period I need to start early" her reply to mine "Fuck you" and then I smile "we played that game hon, hence why you are pregnant"
Other note worthy phrases that have got her to stop yelling at me and talking to me "why did you keep staring at that chick?" this is bad people "She had a nice rack and I just wanted to take a mental picture" "WTF -Demon-?" "You interrupting my mental photo shoot" and in the end "go fuck yo self" "I love you honey"

I usually get bitched at and in return, I say what I want. If people can not respect me then why should I be the bigger person? Don't really answer that.

Busy at work
I have gotten soo much work done and even have more to do! I was told my position is in jeopardy of losing hours. Angered me greatly but what can you do? *dead fish on radiator*

Don't worthy the power figures give more jobs to people from their church and better pay. They actively ignore the rest of us or have us write to them about pay increase and or anything, so they can do nothing about it.

I want to be rich... is that too much to ask? Later tonight I will stop by everybody's blog and comment and all that jazz.

Well. I am in a position that would be sexy, but I am me.

2007-04-09T06:08:00.000-07:00

I am only stopping in to say hi and all that. I just commented on some people's blogs. I played some Gears over the weekend.
Take a look at some of this.

Today is that day that I take a stupid test

2007-04-05T16:31:00.000-07:00

You Are An ENTJ

The Executive

You are a natural leader - with confidence and strength that inspires others.
Driven to succeed, you are always looking for ways to gain, power, knowledge, and expertise.
Sometimes you aren't the most considerate person, especially to those who are a bit slow.
You are not easily intimidated - and you have a commanding, awe-inspiring presence.

You would make a great CEO, entrepreneur, or consultant.

What's Your Personality Type?

I have not been around, have I? Nope.

2007-04-03T18:24:00.000-07:00

oops, o'shit moment, been a few days since I updated, hasn't it? hmmm.

I saw 300, Saturday night. It was very good. I am not going to go into why I liked it, but it certainly did rock. My girlfriend especially liked all the erect nipples, the several scenes that included a variety of sexual positions and something about the needs of men. wait, I am doing it again, lying. I must inform you that she did not care for the scenes I mentioned above. I was just dreaming that she did.

I stayed home today, I was not feeling up to going to work. I know... call it what you will. My eyes burn after looking at the computer screen all day. I want to eat my own fist by the end of each day, my headaches although rare, rip my brain from the inside out. Not used to them, never have been. Nature has deemed it necessary for my body to start learning how to get used to headaches with a nice routine of giving me one each day for the last few days becoming much more common. I hope everyone is doing alright. I will probably stop by everybody's blog today or tomorrow.

I really mean... watch these. Please... W/sugar on top and some more less masculine toppings I can not think of

2007-03-30T21:16:00.000-07:00

Schfiftyfive?

The Badger Song

Morning peeps... got my coffee in my hand and a smoke in the other

2007-03-30T06:57:00.000-07:00

Click on it to see it bigger. I had taken this picture at 5:59 AM.

I have destroyed my blog.

2007-03-28T06:50:00.000-07:00

Well over the last few days I have had some quality bi-polar moments with my blog. Finally I shot it in the fucking "header". I buried it.

I have been updating my links w/new cool catchy phrases. When I get home tonight I am going to be like "Hon, you want to get funky... because I am so cool?" I will probably get the look... ladies you know the look, when you're man is retarded and you do not have the words to express it... so you simplify it, by giving him "the look"

If you find out that you do not have a link yet, be patient. I will hook ya up.

My designs will be back, Civil Protection, Andy Warhol pic, My favorite media links, all that shit. I am going to be making my own background and adding that in the coming weeks. I have pissed hours away from work, home life, and sex life (I just wanted to mention one dirty subject). Has it all been worth it? Sadly yes. Yes it has. God? Do I suck? His answer would be in the bible - "Yes Demon does suckath cosmic cock".

you know your screwed when even the "big man" says it.

I have been working... on my blog.

2007-03-27T06:57:00.000-07:00

You will see changes with my blog, they may not look nice and or work right. However they will be corrected soon. My next step is adding a third column on the left. I have tried this several times in the past each time, I fuck up my html or css or whatever the hell it is called. Do not correct me.

I will also make my own background and have it hosted by flicker. I am to busy to make links for the items I speak of. Editing my blogger code is fun, but it also pisses me off. How does that work out then? I don't know.

I know I need to get some real work done. I will be back tonight editing more shit and swearing at the comp. See you all till then.

Emotional Impurity

2007-03-26T15:55:00.000-07:00

I saw my Varb rank go down. Thats okay *dialing CIA Connected Intel* I mean I bet the guy or gal meant nothing by it *tells that "guy" the location of the mark*

yes what I wrote above does mean I am that lame. You know the one, that guy that uses war references in the office and never actually was in war... yeah that it is me. Well not really, I would not be able to live myself. What was I talking about? anyways...

I am going to have a cup of coffee and a smoke in just a bit before starting the dishes. No surprise there. One would think I fabricate about how much I drink coffee and smoke... but nope.