No apology this time.

z

Things for all of you to know.

1. I suck, but not gay like... all about the metaphors.
2. Computer needed to be reformatted (all my files went up in smoke... no I could not back them up)
3. My hours have been reduced to 24 hours/wk
4. I have totally neglected my blog, see answer 1.
5. I have totally neglected my dream of having my blog becoming an internet mind control device.
6. This is my 171'st post.
7. I was debating on wearing boxers today. Not really, but I wanted to say something like this, just to see if you are reading. Now the question is if I am wearing any?
8. Who the fuck keeps dumping Maine cash down the freaking drain? red or blue, no matter the color they will lie and cheat, yay for politics.
9. Housing foreclosures are up! yay for all homeless people they will not be as alone.
10. I miss you all.

z

Before this last Friday, I have been depressed and came out of it over the weekend. My job is in jeopardy, I had two mortgages due, bills of every nature and color, only $60 was for my internet and 20 channel cable(ghetto cable)... that was the only frivolous spending in bills. Yet that was at 200 something... that is how far behind I was... I was some fucked.

I have neglected my blog and my online friends and for that I am sorry. I have just been falling apart for a few months and it was building and it was not intentional to not attend my blog/online friends.

I got my income tax money and all of it went to bills, besides $300 (Our family has not been treated in sometime). I spent almost $2,100 on lose your house/ lose your car/bills etc. It was a good feeling, but I did not know what to do with myself... I was rather shut down... I mean for so much stress to be gone so quickly... I did not have the knot in my stomach, I did not have the hazy frustration at no one single thing or person. It was all gone and I have not felt that for so long... I had to grow into the position of not worrying, for months I have been sick to my stomach and now all of sudden I am not. It was very unusual.
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I have been working on your link pics. I only have 3 ready and I want to release them as a set (all of my readers together)