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Before this last Friday, I have been depressed and came out of it over the weekend. My job is in jeopardy, I had two mortgages due, bills of every nature and color, only $60 was for my internet and 20 channel cable(ghetto cable)... that was the only frivolous spending in bills. Yet that was at 200 something... that is how far behind I was... I was some fucked.

I have neglected my blog and my online friends and for that I am sorry. I have just been falling apart for a few months and it was building and it was not intentional to not attend my blog/online friends.

I got my income tax money and all of it went to bills, besides $300 (Our family has not been treated in sometime). I spent almost $2,100 on lose your house/ lose your car/bills etc. It was a good feeling, but I did not know what to do with myself... I was rather shut down... I mean for so much stress to be gone so quickly... I did not have the knot in my stomach, I did not have the hazy frustration at no one single thing or person. It was all gone and I have not felt that for so long... I had to grow into the position of not worrying, for months I have been sick to my stomach and now all of sudden I am not. It was very unusual.
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I have been working on your link pics. I only have 3 ready and I want to release them as a set (all of my readers together)